Most likely you will feel normal again, but it depends on what you mean by normal. Most people get occasional symptoms and occasional outbreaks.
Although, TONS of people have fairly consistent nerve pain to varying degrees. So there is a very good chance you will indeed never feel normal.
ANd I am sorry to say your vagina indeed will never look the same
At least it's not so obvious like it might be for a male. I am not pristine and perfect like I once was, but no one has ever noticed. Most peoples junk is kinda weird anyway, a little HPV scarring and disfiguration is not really noticeable by anyone. Not even doctors! So don't worry too much about it.
Do u suffer from eczema / dermatitis on any other parts of the body? e.g. hands , face? Since you test negative for both you could have another infection and the inflammation causes your skin to react.
Peeling skin could be eczema or fungus not HSV.. just saying.. got to a dermatologist get it checked out. The treatments for both are very different. eczema lots of vaselin fungus antifungal meds.
Sorry to hear you are suffering. Not sure where you are but can you find a product from Unda Seroyal called Calendula Cream? You should find it offers much needed relief. The first OB is definitely the worst. If you have an experienced Master Herbalist, Naturopathic Doctor (ND) or Chinese Acupunture/Herbalist in your area they may offer you valuable help. They treat the whole person not just the dis-ease. That helps the body not just the symptoms!
Epsom Salt baths with lavender Essential Oil, Peppermint/Spearmint EO, Lemon Balm EO. Put the EO on the epsom salt first then into the bath water. Not too hot. Tea Tree EO in Coconut Oil applied to sores may help as well as the other EO's I mentioned. Up to 12 drops for 1 cup Epsom Salts but check out proportions online. Not 12 drops of each, total of 12. If you use more you could feel very weak. I know, I tried, almost passed out! More is not better with EO's they must be respected.
I use Oil of Oregano capsules at first indication of illness or OB and the antivirals in that help kick viral ass. Others use Olive Leaf Extract with success but I have no idea if they are contraindicated with the antiviral meds you are on so do research that too. I am not a medical professional just one dealing with what you are for 35yrs and feel your pain and want to offer anything I know has helped me.
You may want to look up Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT) for pain. I truly hope you find relief quickly. There is no quick fix but everything you do for yourself will help!
Usually first ob is the worst, but it will get better in time as your body is developing the antibody. Just hang on to this for the first few weeks, I'm sure it will get better. Good thing you take the antiviral, try apply some essential oil on the lessions like coconut oil.