You are the one who has to live with yourself. Only your opinion of you matters. Opinions don't hurt as much as HSV.
With HSV comes great responsibility! How would you want to be treated? Will you feel good about inflicting another with this without giving them the knowledge you have to make their own life choice?
We are older a lot longer than we are young and with age comes retrospection! What will your mirror look like Dorian?
Yea, sadly and regretfully, I know. I am inching towards giving her papers, but I just hope that we can reverse it some how. I take my vows very seriously. Better or worse, is better or worse, but this is pure torture. Heck, she walks around naked and will not let us do anything all the time. I've never seen a woman have zero sex drive. The reason, I do not want to. She has it in her head it's all my fault, and nothing hers. She and her mother were talking about possible divorce when SHE is ready a few times already. I do not like failure, and I feel it's my fault that this failed. I am hoping it can be repaired, but again, I just see us slowly drifting away. My love for her is much stronger it seems than her love is for me; at least right now. Her mother has said several times, I should be lucky to have her due to all my medical issues. Who would put up with my medical issues. My wife, my MIL says, is a saint. Yet, I pay just about every bill, work every day, cook, clean and take care of the house. My medical issues are muscle/spine related. Nothing mental. Yet, the wife told the MIL it seems that I have a mental disorder. Therefore, I went to my doc and requested a psych eval. She asked why, I said my wife thinks I have a mental disorder. The doctor said I didn't, however, we went through the testing. Passed with flying colors. The only thing I have is chronic pain, no mental disorders. Showed my wife the report, she laughed and said, honey, I never thought you had a mental disorder. It's just so said.
I am sorry to hear what you and your spouse/family had to go through. I hope you are all better in mind, body and soul. You have a great partner there. I envy you greatly.
Quick, get to the doctor's for a swab!
Remember though that ever since the low positive result you have been looking pretty hard for things.
There is no real need for antivirals, if this is herpes you body will stop it in its tracks pretty soon. You can try a topical cream with acyclovir, but that's more for the cream than the antiviral!
The best thing you can apply is a layer of silicon cream that is used to apply to scars. This soothes and keeps the body's natural healing moisture, collagen etc. in place on the sore promoting healing.
Ok let's see how we can help.
Have you got bad sores over your vagina? If so you can probably get a swab performed at a hospital emergency and this is recommended.
How long ago did it start roughly. What was your sexual history in the week leading into symptoms commencing.
The rib cage has nothing to do with herpes, again I'd present to emergency to be seen.
Herpes will clear on its own within 1-2 weeks.