Meditation & Mindfulness

Hi I hope everyone is having a wonderful day. I'm just going to introduce myself. I'm Tanya I caught herpes both gential and oral.. ugh .. I will never forget this day. I was 16 years old and there was this guy a few years older than me that stayed 2 blocks away from my house one day me and my brother got into a fight and my mom always used to pick up for him at times I felt like she didn't like me.. so it was like after 11 at night I threw on some clothes and walked through the front door and trying figure out where I can go but beside here . So that guy I know I text him and asked if I could stop by for a bit clear my mind so I walked over to his house... We were drinking and then one thing lead to another we ended up having sex. But we had sex previously.. but this time after the second round we didn't have any more condoms.. so he told me we good he will just pull out.(me not even thinking about the possible STDs but thank God he don't have aids)... Ended up having sex ... Then was chilling .. then I decided to go home after a while of being there... WHEN I WENT HOME AND TOOK A SHOWER AND WENT TO SLEEP AFTER A FEW HOURS I HAD THE WORSE WORSE WORSE ITCHING IN MY VAGINA HOMR IN MY LIFE IT WOKE ME IP MY SLEEP IM TRYING SO HARD NOT TO CRY AS I TYPE THIS STORY... I DIDNT KNOW WHAT.WAS GOING ON I DIDNT WANT TELL TELL MY MOM ..I FIGIRED IT WAS AYEAST INFECTION I WAS SO SCARED DIDNT EVEN KNOW WHAT WAS GOING ON SO AFTER THAT DREADFUL STAGE I DIDNT ITCH ANY MORE .. ME AND THE GUY LOST TOUCH AFTER HE MOVED... AND I WENT MY WAY AND HE WENT HIS ONE DAY I WAS TAKING A SHOWER AND FELT A SMALL LITTLE BUMP SO AGAIN ME STILL BEING IDK.. I FIGIRED MAYBE IT WAS DROM THE MEDICINE I USED FOR MY SO CALLED YEAST INFECTION SO AS MONTHS GO BY IM WONDERIG TO MYSELF I WONDER IF HE GAVE ME HERPES I STARTED RESEARCHING ON THE INTERNET AND I DIDNT WANT TO CONFRONT HIM AND LOOK LIKE A TOTAL DUMB ASS IF IT WASNT TRUE. SO I WOUKD SAY WHEN I WAS AROUND 18 I KNEW FOR A FACT I HAD HERPES!!!! BUT BY THEN I WAS LIKE WHATS THE POINT I HAVE IT ALREADY SO WHAT MORE I CAN DO CURSING HIM OUT ISNT GOING TO DO ANYTHING FOR ME... SO I KEPT IT AS A DEEP DARK SECRET NOW IM 21.. CANT EVEN GET CLOSE TO ANYONE BECAUSE OF WHAT I HAVE AND TOO EMBARRASSED TO SAY ANYTHING TO ANYONE... UNTIL EARLIER THIS WEEK ALMOST EVERYDAY I THINK ABOUT THIS PROBLEM I HAD I JUST STARTED A FEW MONTHS AGO LOOKING INTO HERB REMEDIES.. BUT WHEN I DONT SEE RESULTS I GIVE UP BUT I KNOW ONE THING I WENT TO WALMART TODAY AND BOUGHT ALL KIND OF STUFF TO DWFEAT THIA THINK IM CUTRING OUT ALL SODAS AND JUMK FOOD IM TIRED OF FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF IM READY TO GET THIS THING CURED BUT IF I DONT SEE ANY RESULT BEFORE DECEMBER IM GOING TO BITE THE BULLET CLOSE MY EYES AND GO TO THE DOCTOR OFFICE CONFESS AND CRY MY EYES OUT..... AND HERE  IS THE KICKER.. AFTER ALL THEESE YEARS I FOUND THE GUY ON FB AND I FINALLY LWT IT OUT I FIGURED IT WAS GONNA TAKE SOME OF THE PRESSURE AND SADNESS AND ANGER I HAD BUILT IN ME BY CONFRONTING HIM.. CAN YOU BELIEVVVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE THIS MAN HAD THE NERVES TO INSULT MY INTELEGIENC AND SAY I DIDNT GET IT FROM HIM I GOT OT FROM SOMEONE ELSE. SO I CLOSED THE CONVERSATION LIKE THIS U KNOW THE TRUTH AND GOD KNOW THE TRUTH TAKE CARE. AND HE BLOCKED ME OFF FB SMH HOW CAN U BEAT ME BEING MAD FOR SOMETHING U DID TO ME AND STILL DOING . EVERYTIME I PASS HIS HOUSE I ASK MYSELF WHY WHY WHY...BUT YOU KNOW WHAT GOD SENDS YOU WARNINGS BEFORE DESTRUCTION AND THIS IS WHAT I BELIEVE HE BEEN TRYING TO WARN ME OF THIS WHOLE TIME BUT BECAUSE I WAS SOO YOUNG AND THOUGHT I KNEW IT ALL LOOK WHAT IT BROUGHT ME TO... SO PLEASE IF YOU HAVE KIDS PLEADE PLEASE PLEASE KEEP AND EXTRA EYE ON THEM AND ENCOURAGE THEM TO COME TO YOU... I WOULDN'T WISH THIS ON MY WORSE ENEMY.... I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER LETTING THIS OUT. 

Hi I hope everyone is having a wonderful day. I'm just going to introduce myself. I'm Tanya I caught herpes both gential and oral.. ugh .. I will never forget this day. I was 16 years old and there was this guy a few years older than me that stayed 2 blocks away from my house one day me and my brother got into a fight and my mom always used to pick up for him at times I felt like she didn't like me.. so it was like after 11 at night I threw on some clothes and walked through the front door and trying figure out where I can go but beside here . So that guy I know I text him and asked if I could stop by for a bit clear my mind so I walked over to his house... We were drinking and then one thing lead to another we ended up having sex. But we had sex previously.. but this time after the second round we didn't have any more condoms.. so he told me we good he will just pull out.(me not even thinking about the possible STDs but thank God he don't have aids)... Ended up having sex ... Then was chilling .. then I decided to go home after a while of being there... WHEN I WENT HOME AND TOOK A SHOWER AND WENT TO SLEEP AFTER A FEW HOURS I HAD THE WORSE WORSE WORSE ITCHING IN MY VAGINA HOMR IN MY LIFE IT WOKE ME IP MY SLEEP IM TRYING SO HARD NOT TO CRY AS I TYPE THIS STORY... I DIDNT KNOW WHAT.WAS GOING ON I DIDNT WANT TELL TELL MY MOM ..I FIGIRED IT WAS AYEAST INFECTION I WAS SO SCARED DIDNT EVEN KNOW WHAT WAS GOING ON SO AFTER THAT DREADFUL STAGE I DIDNT ITCH ANY MORE .. ME AND THE GUY LOST TOUCH AFTER HE MOVED... AND I WENT MY WAY AND HE WENT HIS ONE DAY I WAS TAKING A SHOWER AND FELT A SMALL LITTLE BUMP SO AGAIN ME STILL BEING IDK.. I FIGIRED MAYBE IT WAS DROM THE MEDICINE I USED FOR MY SO CALLED YEAST INFECTION SO AS MONTHS GO BY IM WONDERIG TO MYSELF I WONDER IF HE GAVE ME HERPES I STARTED RESEARCHING ON THE INTERNET AND I DIDNT WANT TO CONFRONT HIM AND LOOK LIKE A TOTAL DUMB ASS IF IT WASNT TRUE. SO I WOUKD SAY WHEN I WAS AROUND 18 I KNEW FOR A FACT I HAD HERPES!!!! BUT BY THEN I WAS LIKE WHATS THE POINT I HAVE IT ALREADY SO WHAT MORE I CAN DO CURSING HIM OUT ISNT GOING TO DO ANYTHING FOR ME... SO I KEPT IT AS A DEEP DARK SECRET NOW IM 21.. CANT EVEN GET CLOSE TO ANYONE BECAUSE OF WHAT I HAVE AND TOO EMBARRASSED TO SAY ANYTHING TO ANYONE... UNTIL EARLIER THIS WEEK ALMOST EVERYDAY I THINK ABOUT THIS PROBLEM I HAD I JUST STARTED A FEW MONTHS AGO LOOKING INTO HERB REMEDIES.. BUT WHEN I DONT SEE RESULTS I GIVE UP BUT I KNOW ONE THING I WENT TO WALMART TODAY AND BOUGHT ALL KIND OF STUFF TO DWFEAT THIA THINK IM CUTRING OUT ALL SODAS AND JUMK FOOD IM TIRED OF FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF IM READY TO GET THIS THING CURED BUT IF I DONT SEE ANY RESULT BEFORE DECEMBER IM GOING TO BITE THE BULLET CLOSE MY EYES AND GO TO THE DOCTOR OFFICE CONFESS AND CRY MY EYES OUT..... AND HERE  IS THE KICKER.. AFTER ALL THEESE YEARS I FOUND THE GUY ON FB AND I FINALLY LWT IT OUT I FIGURED IT WAS GONNA TAKE SOME OF THE PRESSURE AND SADNESS AND ANGER I HAD BUILT IN ME BY CONFRONTING HIM.. CAN YOU BELIEVVVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE THIS MAN HAD THE NERVES TO INSULT MY INTELEGIENC AND SAY I DIDNT GET IT FROM HIM I GOT OT FROM SOMEONE ELSE. SO I CLOSED THE CONVERSATION LIKE THIS U KNOW THE TRUTH AND GOD KNOW THE TRUTH TAKE CARE. AND HE BLOCKED ME OFF FB SMH HOW CAN U BEAT ME BEING MAD FOR SOMETHING U DID TO ME AND STILL DOING . EVERYTIME I PASS HIS HOUSE I ASK MYSELF WHY WHY WHY...BUT YOU KNOW WHAT GOD SENDS YOU WARNINGS BEFORE DESTRUCTION AND THIS IS WHAT I BELIEVE HE BEEN TRYING TO WARN ME OF THIS WHOLE TIME BUT BECAUSE I WAS SOO YOUNG AND THOUGHT I KNEW IT ALL LOOK WHAT IT BROUGHT ME TO... SO PLEASE IF YOU HAVE KIDS PLEADE PLEASE PLEASE KEEP AND EXTRA EYE ON THEM AND ENCOURAGE THEM TO COME TO YOU... I WOULDN'T WISH THIS ON MY WORSE ENEMY.... I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER LETTING THIS OUT. 

I contracted Herpes Simplex 2 four years ago and can't seem to get over the shock. 

I think the fear of being outed is a bit overblown - you can always make a remark that goes against what people said, and reference some youtube video for your source. Might as well start the conversation somewhere!

Use valacyclovir until you know you are pregnant. Once you are pregnant, stop. There's your answer. If it is confusing, speak to a doctor. You might be able to reduce how much of the drug you take.