Bf and I are seroconcordant so not worried about spread/suppressive therapy for his protection.....was just curious for outbreak management how others take their antivirals. I don't want another outbreak as bad as the first one.
But @Seeker1960 your real issue is that you are being smite. Carefully consider the following.
The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the inequities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men. Blessed is he who, in the name of charity and good will, shepherds the weak through the valley of the darkness. For he is truly his brother's keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who attempt to poison and destroy my brothers. And you will know I am the Lord when I lay my vengeance upon you.
This is why you are a seeker, a searcher for the way out of the valley of darkness. You know the way, forgiveness is in the journey that shall lift the plague and pestilence, bless you and good luck!
We have all been where you are so please understand that you will be ok it does take time. You'll get plenty of support and information from this site but first of all what type do you have exactly and how are you diagnosed. What I would suggest to you is do some research and learn as much as you can about the virus because I really will help and it will help you to understand what you need to do going forward in terms of being able to live a normal life because many people have this and it shouldn't stop me from doing anything that you have always wanted to do.
I have been to several doctors including 2 dermatologist to evaluate a rash (Not HSV). This has been very persistent and on my neck for over a month. The medicine they prescribed help but very slowly. I also recently picked up Terri Warren's ebook and I saw she suggested burow's solution AKA Domeboro Astringent Solution. (Available everywhere OTC)
This stuff is amazing after 3 application it reduced the rash over 90 percent. According to the book and medicine it treats HSV, Shingles, and general rashes.
Just wanted to share with everyone and hope if helps anyone.
I think of it like bedbugs in NYC. You will think, "I'm not dirty..my place is clean. I'll never get bedbubgs." They're everywhere in the city. Subway benches, offices, stores, movie theaters..etc.. I have had them. Several people I know have had them too and there is shame also with mentioning you have them!
I remember the only thing I had worry about telling a guy if he stayed over was the bedbugs. It was a little like disclosing an STD lol. Now I would happily trade herpes for bedbugs.
Correct me if I'm wrong here, male readers, but I think men tend to be fixers. When we women come to them upset or with problems, it makes them upset, and they want to make us happy again. So they start suggesting solutions or they try to brighten our mood - if this doesn't work, they get frustrated and feel useless.
Whereas we women mostly need/want to talk problems out - we want to vent, express how we feel, and then we feel better, regardless of whether the problem is fixed or not. To men, this looks like we're going round in circles
Perhaps you could try asking him for exactly what you need/want when you feel down? E.g. "could you please listen to me/hug me" and once he's done it, thank him and tell him it helped? Him saying he "always has to lift you up from a bad mood" sounds to me like he cares about you and wants to protect/help you. He feels personally responsible when you're sad. He wants to help, he wants to make you happy, but is frustrated because he doesn't know how.
Please disregard if not helpful. Just my two cents from noticing my similar patterns with previous exes. One used to freak out whenever I cried about something. When I told him how helpful it was when he just gave me a hug, or sat and listened, he seemed to feel much better... he just needed to feel useful.