hate the f$%#@r

[aryanna]

i love this movie. doesnt hurt i think vin diesel is hot as hell. i've always enjoyed this coversation:

Imam: Because you do not believe in God does not mean God does not believe in - .

Riddick: Think someone could spend half their life in a slam with a horse bit in their mouth and not believe? Think he could start out in some liquor store trash bin with an umbilical cord wrapped around his neck and not believe? Got it all wrong, holy man. I absolutely believe in God... And I absolutely hate the fucker

ive never been a very religious person. describe myself as a recovering catholic

it holds extra meaning lately. maybe some would argue thats why i've been getting a pile of karma shit for the past two years, but that would be a vengeful god and i was taught god is not vengeful. ok so i left my husband, spend 4 years being accused of cheating and it wears a little thin. i was just so sick of it i was not interested in trying to work it out. started dating a great guy, he had his issues but apparently his biggest issue was he didnt want to be in a relationship, funny you wait a year and a half to decide that little gem!! had drunken angry sex with someone i should have wrapped in plastic and dunked in bleach (ever hear the quote from the movie my fellow americans :"Oh, yeah, I'm about to share my coffee with the Washington Love Machine. No dice. You could spit in a Petri dish and start a whole new civilization") that was this guy. oddly didnt make me feel better about getting dumped. fast forward like 4 months meet this guy new to the area, younger than me. i tried to turn him down but he was persistant and my closest friends said go with it enjoy it for what ever it is. two months in i get this diagnosis. he's been great. i admit i was surprised. but poor guy, really? the gods have been crapping on both of us lately and it seems like just when things start looking up something bad happens. in hindsight it seems to get progressively worse so who knows whats next... meteor on the house while i sleep? probably although at this point i might welcome that. do they make meteor rods? its bad enough i ruin my life but it kills me that i probably ruined his too. i dont think i deserve this, but i know he doesnt.

yup..."hate the fucker"

[Always Persevere]

I struggled with feeling like I deserved getting the H or the fear or guilt associated with giving it to someone else. I've come to this conclusion. No one deserves anything. I've had friends who have had the most unsafe sex with people who definitely has multiple STD's and came away with nothing. My mom always says it was roll of the dice, and I just came up with an unlucky number. No one deserves to get sick, to get something incurable. No one. Its a crap shoot. It is a health condition. Almost everyone has a health condition, just ours has a bit more of a stigma unfortunately. You couldn't have known you had the H when you were with your new guy... it isn't your fault. I had a similar situation, and I also experienced guilt and shame. You shouldn't beat yourself up for something you were unaware of. As far as ruining a life... the news is terrible at first... I remember feeling like my life was over... but honestly, you are more than your genitals. It is just a small part of who and what you are. Keep your head up.

[aryanna]

i swear my BF has been talking to you guys LOL! a lot of the things he says i hear here too. funny:-)

[keenan]

i describe myself as a recovering catholic

Ha, I have been saying that forever too. that catholic guilt just never goes away. I got a great birthday card from a friend once and on the front was a nun holding a ruler standing behind at kid at the chalkboard writing " i am personally responsible for the suffering of christ " over and over.

[aryanna]

thats a great card... i'll have to look for that for my cousin...12 years of catholic school for her!

[WolfSpirit292]

Haha, I love Riddick!! Let's put it this way, we have 2 Australian Cattle Dogs. Our 1st is named Ruger- after the gun company- and our 2nd is Kyra- after Kyra in Chronicles. When it came time to do their registered names I laughed after watching Pitch Black again and came up with the perfect name for my boy. Ru's registered name is Ruger B Riddick... and only the true fans would get it, lol. So we have Riddick and Kyra at our place.

[aryanna]

LMAO!!!! love it!! are you with me kyra? thought i would hate the movie because it seemed like a stupid premise but after watching it i fell in love, even before i realized riddick was hot;-)