Should I be pissed???

[justcaz87]

Hi all..

I'm a bit confused at the moment and needing a little bit of advice.

I contracted gential HSV1 from a partner 6 months ago.

We are in an open and long distance relationship and have been for a while now. I am fine and have acknowledged this fact for a while now. Right now I believe the good out weighs the bad so I choose to stay.

He is the only man i've ever slept with, and the only partner I've ever had who's had HSV1 so basically when I was diagnosed a week after sleeping with him we pretty much knew and tests confirmed a very recent HSV1 infection.

At the time he was very supportive. I was orginally just told you have "genital herpes" so basically I went mental at him.. as you do! He was tested, blood and swab and only positive for HSV1 orally and in his blood as he's had it for a while. I also asked to see a copy of the results and I did and they were as he said.

Anyway basically he's been pretty supportive of me, and I know that he felt bad and was regretful. He offered me advice on what to do, and things that would help.

I'm now having my 6th outbreak. All except the first was mild, but I am currently having an outbreak that is the worst i've ever had.

I wont describe it in detail because I'm sure most of you have been through it, but its been bad. I've taken 1.5 days of work this week which is something.. I just DONT do.

Through-out this week i've tried to reach out to him..

Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday.... All of these days I tried to tell him that I was in pain, physically but more so emotionally and I NEEDED to talk to HIM because he's one of the only people who's been really supportive and positive about it.

But he just WASN'T there. I tried to point out that he wasn't there.. and he just didn't get it.

I finally lost it yesterday when he told me about a friend of his who has the same thing. At that point I kinda said "wow its strange someone you barely know would tell you that" And he said "people just confide in me"

I literally LOST it. Not at him.. but I went on my lunch break and I cried and cried. I just couldn't function, I went home and was sick.

I don't know if this is making me emotional for no reason.

I'm NOT the type of person who needs to talk or be in his face every minute of everyday..

But this week.. I needed 5 minutes each day for it to be about how i'm doing which is obviously not good.

Am I over reacting??

Be honest.. I need reality check.. or maybe I don't!

I'm not even sure anymore

Thanks

Caragh

[WarriorKing]

It could be about some other personal or medical issue and you would be feeling the same feelings. Long distance must be difficult. At this point in your relationship I think you "can" ask for special time, even though it's on the phone.