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enlightenlife3

Herpes = loss of everything you had the day before diagnosed

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enlightenlife3

Just an update for some of you who know my story. I was diagnosed with HSV2 on Nov 15th after I was roofied and assaulted after a party. Since then I have lost my ex fiance whom I was getting back together with. He only can support me as a friend right now and not a partner. He simply said that he does not want to have to deal with Herpes and he should not have to. I started therapy and antidepression medication, along with Valtrex suppressive therapy. I have been in and out of a mental hospital because I wanted to die and tried to take a bottle of 45 Xanax on 2 different occassions. Needless to say, I can not work now and had to go on disability, so I lost the love of going to work and going home feeling accomplished. I lost the love of my life, the love of self and feel like I will never get any kind of enjoyable life back. Not to mention the "Who will want me now" thoughts. It has been a little over 2 months and my life as I knew it is gone and I am so sad and depressed.

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elmerette

I am so sorry you are going thru so much, but am relieved to hear that you are seeing a therapist and taking medication. Nothing is ever worth losing your life over. I hate to sound trite, but time will heal all wounds, physical, mental and emotional. Stay in therapy and on the meds, it will get better, I promise!

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Rowergirl33

I know exactly how you feel, I went to the doctor a few days ago and while the test results aren't back, i am sure that I have it. anyways, I find myself looking at things or remembering this, or people bringing up times... and I think "Those were the good days! When none of this crap had happened" Whatever you are doing to keep your mood up, let me know! I feel like life is just about over.

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Fully Qualified Survivor

believe it or not, there are a hell of a lot worse things that can happen to you. Herpes really is not such a big deal. People will still love you, people will still hurt you. Herpes is insignificant. You can of course allow it to rule your life and use it as an excuse for every crap thing that happens to you but that will be your decision. Life is not over....your're just starting out x

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barista

I also am very sorry for everything you are experiencing, but allowing yourself to find help means a lot! I have had cold sores since I was a child and am worried I may now have genital (unsure of h1 or h2 at the moment) Though it was shocking to notice the ob in my lower region after so many years of cs obs, I had to look at it objectively. Herpes does not kill you. It is a total downer during obs, but man there are other things I could have and probably should have done to myself my this age and am lucky to be alive today in my opinion. We all are! We live in an age where we contract this pain in the ass of a virus and are able to suppress is as soon as it rears its ugly head! Then we can get on our computers and talk to everyone else having the same problem instantly! Its awesome! =]

Keep your chin up. Conquer your emotions before all else. Maintain your health and don't let this inconvenience stand in the way of your life and dreams. We are all here for you.

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GECH

You will eventually find your true love someday. Don't worry. That person won't care about Herpes.

I was a virgin before I met my boyfriend who has Herpes. Do you know what I always care about? His health ! There were a couple of times he had done things that made me so mad. I know he didn't intend to do these things. Instead of yelling at or arguing with him, I remained calm when I thought about his Herpes. He's working so hard with long hours. I don't want him to get more stress and pressure from our argument that could lead him to have outbreaks. I shut my mouth just walked away. The next day, my anger went way. :p

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Kitty123

I was in your shoes and wanted to end my life. But then I realized, there is HIV/AIDS, CANCER, LUPUS, people with NO arms or legs, people who can't have children and who desperately want them, Hepatitis, you name it. There is WAY WORSE.

Herpes only hurts because of the stigma. I know I might say that now, and then post a dreadful story tomorrow on here, but today, I'm not going to let it bother me.

Don't kill yourself over ANYTHING. Your life is a gift from God. Don't disrespect him by giving it back. He's definitely not ready to take you back yet.

((HUGS))

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enlightenlife3

Thanks everyone for all the encouragement. Herpes is not the worst thing in the world, I know. It's just that after 3 assaults and getting herpes to boot, being left by my ex fiance, loss of my son and father, a bunch of loss, loss, loss. It is just so painful and that is not even all the story. I try everyday to keep my chin up, it's all I can do.

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JHenry

Enlightened,... No one thing and/or person should be allowed to control anybodys life. When life has started to get me down (for whatever reason) my salvation has been to do something for the benefit of others. It not only takes my mind off my own, sometimes selfish concerns, but helps me refocus on how fortunate I am by comparison. Recently at mass, our priest told us about "FACE". F=Forgive, A=Be accountable, C=Do not be self-centered and lastly, E=We are desitined to be miserable and unahappy if we feel we are "entitled" to anything. A very strong realignment of ones "perspectives". There will also be those with so much more of everything, but always those that have so, so very much less. Count thy blessings. Henry.

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CLover xtc

I feel like shit. I'm actually crying as im writing this. I don't know if I have herpes, but I have been seen by 2 doctors and a practitioner who have all seen and said I probably have herpes. I am terrified. I have so many questions running through my head and I feel like my world is crashing around me. Last week, I was in a car accident that totaled my BRAND NEW car that I only had for 3 weeks, and this week I may have herpes. Every time a doctor said it might be herpes, I tried to make another excuse for it to be something else. I am 18, a freshman in college, I am suppose to be at the high of my life, and now I feel like my life is over and I have no idea what to do.

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