diagnosed today

[browneyedbaby]

Hello everyone. I need people to talk to who are in my same situation. I am away at school in San Antonio and don't have many friends here. The friends i do have here, I am not close with. Over the Thanksgiving Break I went home and saw my boyfriend who goes to school up north. He had a cold sore on his lip and it never crossed my mind that is could be herpes. That is how I think I got it. Yesterday I began feeling intense pain and went to my gyno and she said she is almost positive that its herpes. She says this must be my first outbreak and gave me valtrex. She seemed so blaze about it. I just sat there and sobbed. I have not told my boyfriend yet. I am waiting for all my test results to come in. He is the first guy who has ever treated me the way I know I deserve to be treated. I'm in love with him and I am terrified he wont want to be with me anymore. If he didn't give it to me and he doesn't have it, I am terrified that he will find me discusting. I don't know what to do. I think I'm in shock. I am trying to go about my normal day but I keep crying every time I see my perscription of Valtrex or the pamphlets I got. I know it isn't the end of the world and there are millions of people who are going through this, but I feel so alone right now.

[Cherry Cola]

Hi and welcome the our forum!You don't have to be alone anymore hun we are here to offer you our love and suport!!

Take Care!!

[ocmichelley]

I totally can relate to you browneyedbaby. I wasn't just diagnosed with it but went to a lot of the same stuff you are. I had been with my boyfriend 3 months when i noticed sores/lesions whatever u want to call them down there. i freaked out and i actually got very sick. It was impossible to get warm, I had major chills, dizziness, nauseous but I assumed it was b/c I had gone out with friends and had a little too much to drink. Well i called Planned Parenthood b/c I knew it was something. My boyfriend was aware of all this but wasn't sure what it was either; at first he was very upset and asked who i'd been screwing around with. i told him no one and this is the first time i'd seen these symptoms. Well sure enough went to the gyno and she said yea, w/o a doubht it was a herpes outbreak. I lost it completely and cried right then and there on the table she had me on. she gave me some info on it b/c I told her I dind't know much and went out to my car and started crying all over again. called my boyfriend who was very supportive and said that he wanted to research it some to see what it was we were going to be dealing with/ i thought it meant i couldn't have kids till i read on. But can totally relate to you in that everytime i saw that prescription bottle or papers from dr i felt like throwing up, i felt dirty, sick to my stomach. I realized that i can't let this overcome me, when i have an outbreak get the valtrex and it's over in 3 days. IT's stil lhard when i do get an outbreak b/c it's something i can't get rid of. it's been 7 months since i was diagnosed- i've had about 4 outbreaks since may. They usually say that around months the average person stops having monthly outbreaks. Be strong though, i know its hard. I'm only 23 and i can't believe something like this happened to me. the best thing I do is educate myself about it..there is so much info online so i can read more about what i have and how to deal with it,etc. Actually just yesterday my boyfriend told me that he is pretty sure that he has it now. I'm almost 100% sure that i got it from him b/c he had a coldsore on his mouth and now i think i've passed it to him genitally but we'll deal with it like we have been and share prescriptions now i guess if he really does have it.

[browneyedbaby]

doing better

Thanks for you guy's replies. They really helped me this past week. I did tell my boyfriend and he has been very supportive. I told my mom and she told my dad. I am scared to death of my Dad. His acceptance and love means the world to me. Every time I do something to disapoint him I feel terrible for weeks. When my mom told me she told my Dad I felt sick to my stomach but an amazing thing happend. My Dad called me to see how I was doing and told me that I shouldn't worry about how this virus was going to affect how he feels about me. So, to update, I am doing really good. My outbreak is almost over, the most important people in my life know and are supportive, and I knwo its not the end of the world. If it weren't for this website I'm not sure I would be as ok with everything as I am. YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME!