Jump to content
World's Largest Herpes Support Group
Sign in to follow this  
gardencook

scared...

Recommended Posts

gardencook

I have tremendous guilt over finding out I have H. I have HSV1, and I found out nov 2010. I've been told and read that hsv1 isn't so bad, that alot of people have this. Before I found out, I didn't know anyone with it. I have only told my mom (the day I found out) and the guy I was with when I found out (he didn't give it to me.) I'm not sure where I got it from. The first week after I found out I was a wreck. I was angry and scared and I yelled at alot of people. I blamed it on other things, of course, I wasn't gonna tell anyone. I felt dirty. I don't sleep around or anything.

I'm afraid since finding out, i haven't been as careful as i should be. But I don't know what I'm doing. I have a 5 year old sister. I have to be extremely careul around her. It broke my heart when my mom told me to not let her drink after me and to kiss her like i used to. When my friends and I get together and drink, sometimes we give each other pecks on the mouth. Now I try not to do it but I'm not always successful.

Up until I found this site, I had no one to talk to, or to get real information. It has only been a couple of days on here so far, but I already feel better. More calm. Not as afraid. I'm still scared as shit, and I think about it every day. Very aware of how I feel at every moment of every day.

I take l-lysine plus a multivitamin everyday. I eat ok, but currently working on doing better. I'm also very active. I know diet and all that have a lot to with things. I haven't had an OB yet and I'm praying I'll be one of those lucky ones to not get one for awhile. Although knowing I won't be, gives me such anxiety i can't even describe.

I don't know what I expect by posting this, but maybe knowing someone else knows alittle about me will make me feel a bit better.

Thanks for reading

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
JBnATL

Just where do you have hsv1? Oral or genital? If you were diagnosed via blood test then more than likely you have it oral. 80% of the adult population has hsv1. I bet if your mom was tested she would be positive too.

And don't worry about passing it along via a cup, it takes skin to skin contact to pass this along.

Since you have never had an outbreak you probably never will. It probably also means you have had it a while and the longer you have this the less you are contagious. So I doubt you can really pass this along.

You should go to a doctor with these feelings and let them explain how common and harmless this is.

Good luck!

JB

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

Create an account or sign in to comment

You need to be a member in order to leave a comment

Create an account

Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!

Register a new account

Sign in

Already have an account? Sign in here.

Sign In Now
Sign in to follow this  

Advertisement

Try a Lysine supplement for cold sores

  • The Hive is Thriving!

    • Total Topics
      68,237
    • Total Posts
      455,423
  • Posts

    • Mrspinkk
      Hi everyone  I have Ghsv1. 3 months I receive frequent outbreaks. There are no lesion redness, burning and itching as just a rash. I know that herpes trigger opportunistic infections. How do I know this mushroom or that herpes ?  Do you have frequent outbreaks is living Ghsv1? I feel alone
    • LeftCoast
      I have been positive for about 8 months and I’ve generally been open to friends and family about my status. I’ve tried a brief stint with dating other H+ folks from Postive Singles and it hasn’t really worked out.  There’s this guy who works security at my gym and he’s been chatting me up a lot recently. I like him and I haven’t made any moves but I get the vibe he’s getting ready to ask me out. It sucks because he’s obviously interested and I would love to go out on a date with him.  I’ve never had to disclose to a new person before and I’m really really really dreading this. I’m dreading it to the point where Im wondering if I should turn him down if he does ask me. I hate this. You know I could handle the symptoms of herpes, the only thing that sucks about this thing is that it’s contagious. I have zero problem taking drugs everyday, but valtrex is so fucking inadequate with providing me any reassurance of reducing transmission.  I’m so frustrated. Just give me some better fucking drugs so I can feel confident again. 
    • valleynovascotia
      Any advice on on how i can change the way she thinks of her insecurities in the event I ever see her again or hang out with her or do you guys think that it's better too just walk away. The truth is though i never met another girl like her before and she was fine with me having herpes i could tell by the she reacted too it . How do you change the way someone views them self that has low self esteem. 
    • WilsoInAus
      Note @Asr624 that an IgM result does not confirm a herpes diagnosis. Was the rash swabbed as well?
    • LiveLife100
      Yes it's entirely possible that he didn't know and just now gave it to you. I've been with my husband almost 19 years and he was recently tested and is still negative. It's still possible of course that I could give it to him at any point. Sounds like you have a strong marriage and there is no reason this needs to be an issue other than a minor annoyance. I have 2 healthy children and have had no related medical issues due to HSV.
×

Important Information

We have placed cookies on your device to help make this website better. You can adjust your cookie settings, otherwise we'll assume you're okay to continue.