worst first OB EVER!!!

[indenial]

Hi everyone,

I just wanted to share my story with everyone, because its pretty dramatic! First of all i am not 100% sure i have herpes, but thru my own research i am 99.9% certain. Anyway it all started this past summer in Guatemala, where i met my boyfriend at the time. One day i found i had this soreness down there, and i just assumed it was from sex. However it didnt go away, in fact the pain got worse, but i attributed it to a yeast infection that developed.

Well since this is guatemala and a very isolated region, i self medicated. a week later, no improvement, but i did get a bladder infection. I had had several in the past so i knew the symptoms. so i got myself some cipro. unfortunately my bladder infection got worse, turning into a kidney infection, (again i knew the symptoms). Finally i couldn't take it anymore. . so I traveled 3 hours to a clinic, where i asked the doctor to check if the few blisters I had were herpes. He had never seen a case of herpes so he wasn't sure. I should mention here that i cried all day almost everyday because of the pain!

As i expected, the doc attributed the sores to the yeast infection. So all i had supposedly was a really bad yeast infection and an even worse UTI. He gave me more of the medication i was already taking, and off i went, waddling. ( I COULD BARELY WALK).

A week later things took a turn for the worst! I had every symptom ever described, i had sores, cuts, blisters, bumps, discharge, incredibly swollen lymph nodes, and on top of my yeast infection, and UTI i got what i thought was a really bad flu. I got a fever, i was throwing up, and i had so much pain throughout my body i thought i was gonna die! Every time i went to the bathroom i cried, it hurt so much. I began to freak out...my boyfriend was so worried we ended up driving 5 hours to the nearest big city, where the only thing they found was that on top of all of this.....I was one month PREGNANT!! The doctors there attibuted all of my symptoms to pregnancy and didn't look further. BUT I KNEW!!

I asked my boyfriend of any rashes or blisters, and he said yes he had and even showed me, and thats when i knew i had it for sure. This whole ordeal lasted exactly 17 days. Thank god for the internet, it really helped to know what i had and that eased my worries. When i came back to the states i asked to be tested but they said that i needed to be tested during an outbreak, and since i haven't had one since, over 5 months now. I really don't have actual test results. but im not gonna kid myself.

As far as how i feel about it, i guess i am jsut relieved that i didn't die, like i thought was happening. And either i am in denial or i just really don't care. I have it, and everyday goes on as normal, the only difference is now i have a secret..but it doesn't affect my daily life. As for my pregnancy i ended up suffering a miscarriage in my third month. My long distance relationship ended and i am just calmly waiting for my next outbreak. And thats my story, it has by far been the most physically painful experience ever! and it taught me to be more careful, and i always tell myself at least it isn't AIDS. things could be alot worse..

[Cherry Cola]

Welcome to our site!I'm really sorry to hear your storey.You seem to have a pretty good attitude about it and accept it.When I first got it I did not see a doctor b/c I was scared and ashamed,but I'm really glad I did finally go.I was also 99.9% sure it was herpes so when the doc told me it was I wasn't to shocked and I knew it wasn't the end of the worl and it could be worse.The first I did was do a search on the net to get more info about it.Thats the best thing to do.Educate yourself about it and of course be carefull in the future.

[indenial]

It definately isn't the worst thing to happen to a person. I know people react to it differently and worry about future relationships. Thankfully i don't have those worries. I would just like to tell anyone out there that how you treat yourself and your attitude about what you have reflects what others will think. Does that make sense??

When i told my boyfriend at the time, he really didn't know what it was, and when i told him, he just shrugged it off. I realize ignorance is bliss, but it also made me feel better that he didn't react like we were both disgusting or dirty or lepars...? So even though i know what i have, i borrowed some of his attitude. It helps, remember if you think you have a disgusting awful disease, others will think the same. I see it as an infection, one that inconviences a few times a year, and the only reason people think its gross is because its an infection "down there". And i guess "down there" is kinda gross to begin with.

I am still as pretty as ever, i still have a great job, great friendships, the only difference is i will get a few bumps and some itchiness a couple of times a year. Thats not so bad and in the future if i get involved with someone else, i will take my carefree attitude with me. And if that doesn't work, well then find someone else.

Its all about your attitude.