I made a huge mistake!

[Guest Anonymous]

i contracted herpes while participating in safe sex. i used a condom everytime with this partner. IT FAILED ME! please don't be fooled into believeing that if you use a condom everything will be alright, because it happened to me. I did not have the choice of knowing, my partner refuses to believe that he gave me herpes, he even refuses to believe he has herpes himself, when he is the only person i could have contracted it from. there are people in this world who don't care about, whether they affect you could matter less to them. now i feel like less than a person, when people talk about their boyfriends, i get quiet, because i know that it will be a long time before i have another relationship. i can only pray and ask GOD to help me. we carry this burden, this huge chip on our shoulders. i wish i could be the old me, if i could rewind time i would do EVERYTHING differently. it isn't worth it. to take the risk of giving this curse to someone, it could never be worth having someone feel this way that i have felt. it is my fault i have this, i can't blame anyone else, so what do i get to fix it? NOTHING! i can treat it, and fight with it but it will never go away, its hard enough dealing with the insecurities you were born with, but no having to deal with a whole nother venue of SH**. the only safe sex is no sex, and thats real!

[2bhealthy]

I too got it during the use of a condem. I felt just like you and I have prayed for the sexual temptation to be removed from my thoughts. It has worked. The thought of not having sex anymore actually pleasure, rather then the fear I felt when I was in your shoes.

I am on suppressive therapy and I have not had an outbreak again. I have had tingling feelins and coincidently, was not intimate at that time.

It is a shame when it is denied. I went through that one too.