seeking your help as soon as posible for hsvt1

[hopeforcure]

I never dated and was virgin until 28 yrs old, when I contracted hsv1 (on lips for cold sores & genital). Iam negative for hsvt2 from blood test results. Reasons why I never dated were: fear of STDs, pregnancies and always wanted to date the guy will marry.

It's been three yrs without knowing I had hsvt1, just found out this year in june from a blood test. I experienced all the symptoms but didn't know what it was. Now the symptoms have worsened and spread allover my body ( my neck, legs and thighs have black spots due to briuses,bumps,leisions). The black spots inside the skin look like clotted blood.

I don't know what to do now. I feel my life has stoped. I regret why on earth did I loose my virginity, got hsvt1, and will never have children or live in hard relationships.

Iam thinking of going to a damatologist for more advise. I have not taken any medicine yet. Iam just stranded in my own world. As I write now, I have all the symptoms. Please I need your advise very soon.

Thank you.

Wish I knew

[Guest dangermouse]

Sorry about what's happened. Life is not always what they told it would be, is it? All I can tell you is that there are men out there that will be happy to date you even with herpes. I am one of those men.

[ouch]

AND....you CAN have children. You can do what I have done, which is opt for a csection (well, I also had to have a csection for other reasons, herpes was the icing on the proverbial cake for me!) But there are many women, right here on this board, who have had children vaginally as well.

Danger mouse is right, there ARE men out there who will date you and eventually love you, despite having herpes.

Please get some medical help and treatment asap. This will help lessen the severity of your outbreaks, possibly stop them for longer periods of time. Also, I would check in with a dermatologist who can help out with these other skin problems you are having...they do not neccesarily sound like herpes...but best to get checked by someone who is a specialist!

It seems really hard right now, I know, but things will get better once you learn how to get this virus under control. There are also vitamins to take, topical ointments to try....don't let it get you down. You took a chance on love, and thought you were doing the right thing....but you know what....this could have happened with anyone...you could have waited, got married and you "husband" could have gave this to you. There are no guarantees. So many people HAVE hsv1....you are not alone.

Keep your chin up and get into a doctor asap so they can help you start healing.

[hopeforcure]

Ouch and dangermouse, thanks for your healing messages. I have scheduled to see a damatologist, but still scared herpes might have spread allover my body. In addition to the symptoms I described in my previous message I have also the upper inner folder of my ear turining dark/black and don't why. Does any one know if herpes cause this? I have had all these symptoms for three years without knowing.

My other questions are: where can I buy these topical ointments and specifically which ones? Is there a website or store I can try? If its online, how can I keep my credit card information confidential since I want to keep privacy of my herpes from other people who can have access to my credit card. How about deliverance to my apt coz I don't want other people in the house to know:? Any ideas would help me.

Thanks,