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Coconut

I still can't accept it!

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Coconut

It has been about 5-6 weeks since I've been diagnosed with GH. It is so hard to accept.

As is sit here with my bottle of wine crying my eyes out (yup im drinking...so what) I can't seem to find a way to learn how to cope with all of these different emotions. As much as I try to tell myself that "life can go on...this is just another obstacle".... Again, I can't wrap my head aroung all of this. (tear, tear) Why me? I have never been the type to sleep around. I'm 26 and I can count in one hand the number of people I slept with. I Hate myself right now!!! I went to the doctor today and according to my IGG results she said she is more then definite that I have had this for more then a month :(

So that means that I got this from my long term previous relationship.Even more devastating!!! Crazy!! Someone I loved and I trust! This is So hard to take in.

Everyone here keeps telling me that things will get easier... but i doubt it!! How can I reveal this to my future relationships...I'm sure I would get plenty of rejections because of "H"... I'm afraid of rejection. Or of someone starting and ugly rumor of me after I have revealed to them my conditions. I can't deal with that!! I really Can't!!!

I guess is just going to be me, my bottle of wine, and my lil puppy!!For a very long time.... Cheers to the lonely life!!!

Life can be a Mo#&$R F&$@#R!!! Hope there is brighter days ahead!!!

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SMZ87

I'm in the exact same situation as you. I was just diagnosed about 5 weeks ago and I'm also drinking wine right now lol. It's been rough, a lot of ups and downs. I've been really emotional and a lot more fragile. I really have no one to talk to about this except people on this forum.

Have you talked to your long term partner? It's possible he didn't know he had it. If you had a partner before him, you could have gotten it from that person. This virus is crazy and can hide out forever.

I don't know if you've been feeling this way, but I feel extremely ugly and undesirable. Everyone says that it gets better. I'm hoping for both of us they are right.

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j37

I know exactly how you feel. I was just diagnosed a week ago with HSV2 and the guy that gave it to me didn't know he had it....well at least he claims he doesn't have it but I know it was him. After a few months of unprotected sex, I got the symptoms shortly after and he was the only one I was with. He said that he would get checked out but I haven't heard anything from him. Gee..thanks for giving me this horrible virus and then disappearing without any support! I liked him so much and I still have a hard time with the idea that he didn't know. How can he not know? Now, the real good guy who lives in NC wants to visit me and I don't want him to because of this. I can't tell him but if he comes and stays with me, I have to. It's hard when you lose the carefree days of never thinking that you're contagious to innocent people.

After reading some of the posts, I know that it gets easier to live this new, contagious life but right now, I completely understand when you say you haven't gotten over it yet. It's going to take me a long time too.

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Bright Side

My story is exactly the same... I'm even 26. I'm struggling quite a bit and like y'all the guy thinks it wasn't him and totally bailed when I told him. I hope things get better for all of us. Knowing I'm not alone really does make me feel a little less worse.

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angelstar838

im 26 as well I cry :( about it every morning the guy I believe may not have know that he had it but im still upset for even getting involve with him because he was a rebound guy that was not even worth my time. we both got blood test early on after i fell ill and we were both negative. My blood test didnt read positive until around the sixth month mark I had about 5 test done inbetween. Its been hard but im trying to cope hoping things will get better for all of us with time

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Bright Side

My guy was a rebound guy as well..I've only been with 5 people and was incredibly naive. I'm struggling so much with this and I can't seem to make myself feel better.

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