19yo diagnosed in january

[Raychel]

im 19, bisexual and was taken advantage of last christmas by a quite scary black man. im a VERY small person, so it makes me sick that any guy that big (and older) could find me attractive, but i guess my size makes me a good target for these sorts of things.

what makes it difficult, is i'm from a very conservative home, and my parents dont know im sexually active let alone bisexual with H.

i used to be a very intimate person - not just sexually, but i liked to let people into my life and be involved in theirs, but now i have my secrets.

my ex girlfriend knows, and is supportive. another childhood friend, was not as helpful, and broke me down about the whole situation.

i cant keep leaning on my ex, and need any kind of support i can get.

being taken advantage of is one thing, but to be left with herpes is just more than i can handle.

what do i do?

[Guest dangermouse]

Raychel.

You've already made a good start by finding a message board to talk things through. Well done!

I hope you'll get some good answers from others who have been through the early stages you are experiencing.

[ouch]

I am sorry you have contracted herpes, especially in such a frightening manner, however, it doesn't matter what COLOR the bloke was, what matters is that a large, physically imposing man decided to take advantage of a smaller woman. It is chicken shit and cowardly and one can only hope that someone down the road cuts his balls off and feeds them back to him.

That being said, I think what you should focus on is getting some therapy/counseling. Forget about the herpes for a moment. It DOES suck, but we are here to try and help with that and answer questions. I am more concerned about your psyche after feeling you were taken advantage of. Did you press charges? Did he get away? Sometimes having justice served is a step towards inner healing.

Herpes sucks. I ain't even going to lie. BUT, while you have to make some changes in your life, and it is good to be healthy, physically and mentally, you CAN live with it and you will survive just fine. I am glad you have one friend who has been very supportive. The other friend, well, she most likely was speaking out of ignorance. Many people are very ignorant about herpes.

The key thing now is to heal yourself internally/emotionally. This will make you stronger, thus, help you in dealing with having herpes.

in the meantime, lets hope that someone shoves cockroaches up this guys' ass. (the one who assaulted you.) He deserves more, but this would be a nice start....

[kellie]

yeah i agree the color has little to do with it, but i am sorry you were taken advantage of

i know about leaning on people with it. but u know what, true friends are there for u, and it seems like your ex girlfriend is a TRUE friend indeed, just keep your chinup u always got us too!