One month and counting

[leebee]

Hi, I've just been diagnosed with herpes close to the first of the month. I am in a relationship with the person who gave it to me, who I also lost my virginity to. I was so shocked because I had waited 22 years to have sex and had been so incredibly careful (using condoms every time) and ended up getting herpes anyways from oral sex. I still don't know how I feel about everything, I feel as though my dating life is over if I the relationship that I'm in now were to ever not work out. I have told 3 of my friends and my boyfriend who was just as shocked as I was. When I was diagnosed I went into the clinic knowing what I had thanks to self diagnosis on the internet. The woman just looked at me like she was telling me I had cancer or something and pulled in other people to look at it because they hadn't seen it before. Needless to say, I felt absolutely horrible and that was one of the worst experiences I've ever had. Luckily I have switched clinics and have the most wonderful doctor ever now. I spent awhile just talking to her and she shook my hand and looked me in the eye and told me I wasn't a bad person and I didn't do anything wrong but had just gotten unlucky. I guess I don't know what else to say other than the fact that I can't stop thinking about it and wondering if or when I will get another outbreak and what will happen if I ever have to tell someone else about this. I want things to go back to the way they were but I know that can't happen. I just wish I never would have gotten it but now that I have it I'm trying to keep a really positive outlook. It has been hard but we'll see how it goes.

[Guest guest]

so sorry to hear you have this virus too.

i found out last week myself. i know exactly how u feel.

embarrassed....mad....sad... all at once too. its very over whelming at times.

im still in the middle of my ob. 1st one. it has been a challenge to say the least.

its real easy to place blame on your partner. believe me when i heard i had it... the drive home i barely rememeber because i was upset. and i just gave everything i had in my hands to bobby(my husband) pamplets they gave me..the valtrex pills and ahh yes the bag of condoms (like id even want to have sex now) ya know.

but now ive known a week and ive found online support and the shock of it all has worn off so i can think a little clearer.

and theres really no way to tell who had it first. has your bf been tested?

i told mine he had to go cause i have to know if he has it too.

not that it makes much difference now but i think not knowing is worse. for me anyways.

how long was your ob?

i hope you dont get another. i have read ALOT online this past week and stress seems to be a cause for some ob's so try to relax and try not to worry about the next one. hopefully you will be one of those people who get one and never have another.

i sure hope so.

good luck

[smh1]

Wow, i'm pretty sure you're the only person on here with like the exact situation as myself. I was also diagnosed somewhere at the beginning of this month. I've always been careful like yourself, with only one sexual partner, my current boyfriend, and i think i caught it through oral sex as well, because i know my boyfriend gets coldsores. And i think we have about the same outlook on the whole situation. You're just the older version of me =]. I'm 18.

But i hope everything goes well for you! At least you're abe to tell people, so educate them on how easily you can get the virus, and you definitely don't have to be some huge slut to get an STD, obviously.

[leebee]

Thanks! It is nice to know there are others out there who know how I feel. My friends have been awesome but until you go through something like this I feel like you can't fully understand how it feels. I am surprised all of the stigmas that I had surrounding STDs that just aren't true. If it can happen to me, it can happen to anyone.

I hope things are going better for you! Thank you again!