Im Scared Shitless!

[Josh1234]

Ok When i first realised the bumps on my penis i wasnt that worried as i didnt realis herpes was un-curable, after talking to a online friend today he explained how serious it was, i decided to join this bord to get a general opinion if ppl think i have herpes.

i am sitting hear crying as im a 15 year old male and sex & girls is a masssssssive part of my personality, i realise that if i have herpes this will have to stop.

i have a appointment at a std testing clinic on friday and hopefully they will let me know then, i fear that if i am diagnosed with herpes i will end up just doing loads of stupid things and then in the end just kill myself as i dont think i could cope with this sort of thing.

i have made a thread in the 'could i have herpes' thread and attached pictures in the hope i will get some news from you guys before my appointment at the clinic.

if this is herpes this is 1 of the worrrrrst things thats ever happend to me

if this is not herpes i swear i am never having sex withought a condom agaiiiiiiiiiiin its possible one of the stupidest things ive ever done and i am regreting it more than anything atm. i cant stop fucking crying ffs and i dont wana stop typing cause it its driving me crazy just thinking about it.

plz plz plz will you have a look at my pictures and let me know what you think thanks

[JRTJRT]

Sometimes you can get an "emergency" appointment at a clinic. Tell them you have symptoms now, and that you have bumps that need to be swabbed and tested (they call it a bump test at my clinic). They will take a sample of the fluid inside the bumps to test for herpes. Do not pop the bumps! Once the bumps lose the fluid and scab over, they can't do the bump test anymore and will have to wait until you get another outbreak to test the new sores.

Blood tests are usually useless until 8-12 weeks after infection. Some say 3-4 weeks but regardless you're in for a wait.

STD screenings don't test for herpes so you need to specify to them that you want herpes testing in addition to standard STD's. I had to wait 2 weeks for standard STD testing but if they do a visual and suspect something they might start you on antibiotics just to be safe.

And you could ask if you can grab any cancelled appointments. No sense in dragging this out all week until friday...

[WaxedWrong]

ok relax.

those pictures... meghhhhh GOOD Thing ur going to the doc~ alot of things can cause bumps, other then herpes, but if they turn into ulcers, then its def herpes.

and sex & girls shouldnt be a MASSSSSSSSSSSIVE part of ur personality.

sure your younge, everyone around u is trying to have a girl or say they got head first, but really.. IT DOESNT MATTER to anyone else but u.

also herpes, isnt gonna kill you so dont go thinking your life is over. once the outbreak is over> thats is- ur back to normal - the only thing now that u have to be carefull about is sex(spredding it) and keeping your self healthy.

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also you should contact the girl/girls u have been with in the past fee weeks, and tell them to get tested

[hopingseeking]

Sex ed is soooo undertaught, sadly even in "developed" countries. Ironically, I think sex ed is better in places like South Africa and Vietnam (admittedly it is because STDs run rampant through those countries). Anyways, back to the topic at hand.

It's a scary scary thing you're going through. I know, I've felt (and sometimes still feel) what you're feeling right now. I would recommend you find some older friend (maybe even your parent or counselor) to help you and give you advice. Of course, we're always here too.

As for what you can do medically... good job getting to the STD clinic. That's the best thing you can do right now. Good luck.

[Josh1234]

Ty people your being really supportive, ok firstly the bumps dont appear to have any fluid inside them, there not verry raised from my dick i can barley feel them when i touch them its more lil lil dots, secondly noooooooo i would really rather talk to people online than irl... also if i have caught herpes then it was from the girl on saturday so it will only be her ill be telling.

ty again for your support.

[GymMonster]

I can’t see your pictures, I’m blocked for some reason. Anyway it is probably Herpes, it’s a very common disease and very easy to spread, you can still easily get it even if you use a condom. Any fluid that may come into contact with your testacies or below the condom that has Herpes in it can infect you. I’m glad I didn’t start having sex at your age, life is hard enough. I just worried about sports and school work, for sex I just masturbated.

You think you want to kill yourself over this? I have a friend that was involved in an auto accident and he had is head bashed in, lost an eye and was partially paralyzed on his left side. He is still alive and he is glad to be alive. You see, you are only 15 years old, I’ve had herpes for 21 years! Your life hasn’t even started and you think it’s only about girls and sex? Life may have much harder trials to throw at you, some self inflicted and others that are not. Forget about sex and girls for a while and focus on more important things, prepare yourself for your life. I know this is a lecture, but I’m old and you're young, I’ve got the experience and you don’t. Stay on the site for support and read all you can. If you don’t have it consider yourself VERY lucky, and keep this in mind, if you continue to do what you are doing even with a condom you will end up with something or multiple somethings. STD's usually come in 2's, so a few years down the road Genital Warts may show up on you, it can take them that long to show. Condoms break and like I said fluid can get on you. I find it amazing that everyone that has sex doesn’t have Herpes, I know it’s an epidemic with High School age kids.

Welcome to the adult world and good luck,

Gym

[ouch]

yeah, when I read that a teen of 15 has sex and girls as being a MASSIVE part of his personality, I have to think hell....isn't there some other sports or activities you can get into. 15 is a bit young to allow these things to be such a HUGE part of your "personality". I understand being girl-crazy, but I would say gestate for a while on the sexuality part. Reason being: then you must deal with the grow-up world of STDS like herpes, and lets face it, most teens are not ready and emotionally mature enough to deal with something like herpes. Hell, most of us ADULTS have a hard time dealing with it, so I can't imagine what it would be like to be a teen and dealing with the reality and responsibiliy of herpes:

let us not forget lad, there are also things out there MUCH WORSE than Herpes simplex 1 and 2. Let us start off with HIV/AIDS.

Safe sex is a MUST....but it can not always protect you from herpes. And most teens are very bad at practicing safe sex, as they feel it "can't happen to them" and that they can gauge "who is dirty or not". A scary, false sense of security that many teens use when engaging in sexual acts. I hear it time and time again.

Please go to your local health clinic or planned parenthood. They are confidential, and will help you get free to extremely cheap testing done. Do it NOW while these sores/bumps/whatever are present. The sooner the better. Get it checked out though, for your own peace of mind. If it IS herpes, then you are going to have to make some major, ADULT, lifestyle changes. You can not run around and have sex with every Suzie Q, and if you DO , you will have to divulge your status, as is morally right and in some cases LEGAL.

If you do NOT have herpes, and I hope you don't, then let this little scare be a HUGE lesson for you. You have now gotten a tiny glimpse into the darkside of human sexuality; the reality of sex. I would say take a nice long break from sex ....date, have fun, go out with girls, but try to focus on doing well in school, getting involved with other activities, and not let sex and chicks be such a HUGE part of your personality. You can make this whole situation a HUGE learning experience and become a better and stronger person because of it.

I wish you all the best and hope things turn out well. `

[Belladonna]

a lot of misinformation out there, and even in here too

JRTJRT ~ I noticed that your status says you're an educated member. And I don't want to be disresepectful, because perhaps it was a typo, but--- Herpes is a VIRUS and antibiotics are for BACTERIAL infections. Valtrex and Acyclovir are ANTIVIRALS. If someone takes antibiotics for a virus, it does nothing to the virus.

GymMonster ~ Thank you for mentioning the fact that one can still contract herpes even with a condom, but you mentioned that it's in the fluid. Not True--- Viral Shedding, it's about Skin-to-skin contact-- not just fluids.

I know I'm listed as a "newbie" but I've been on this site for awhile, I was diagnosed with HSV II June 13th, 2005. I've been to many doctors, spent many nights reading & researching. I just haven't gone through whatever it is that you need to do to change your status on this site.

It just really upsets me when I see such horribly wrong information coming from an "educated" member. This is a 15-yr-old kid -- please don't lead him to believe that antibiotics will help in this situation.

[GymMonster]

GymMonster ~ Thank you for mentioning the fact that one can still contract herpes even with a condom, but you mentioned that it's in the fluid. Not True--- Viral Shedding, it's about Skin-to-skin contact-- not just fluids.

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First you say, "It's not true that it's in the fluid," and then at the end you say, "Not just the fluids?" Those kinds of posts irritate me. I know how it spreads; I was mentioning ONE form of transmission. I've had this disease for more than 21 years. If the condom was to rub and pop a batch of blisters near the base and the fluid mixed with vaginal liquid it could easily get on your penis below the condom. You do not need to have skin to skin contact, the virus can be moved around by other means. HSV-2 is HIGHLY contagious, and my only point is, don't take chances with it.

Gym

[Belladonna]

You TOTALLY missed what I was trying to say

it’s a very common disease and very easy to spread, you can still easily get it even if you use a condom. Any fluid that may come into contact with your testacies or below the condom that has Herpes in it can infect you. I’m glad I didn’t start having sex at your age, life is hard enough.

Your post makes it sound as if it's ONLY in the fluid - that's what I had a problem with. I am FULLY aware that you can get it with a condom, hell, I even commended you for saying that!!!

70% of HSV patients caught it while their partner didn't display any symptoms, (which means that there was no sore, no liquid, and viral shedding must've been the culprit).

I'm just really trying to get the information that you can get it from crotches touching even if there is a condom and no sores out there.

[JRTJRT]

JRTJRT ~ I noticed that your status says you're an educated member. And I don't want to be disresepectful, because perhaps it was a typo, but--- Herpes is a VIRUS and antibiotics are for BACTERIAL infections. Valtrex and Acyclovir are ANTIVIRALS. If someone takes antibiotics for a virus, it does nothing to the virus.

No disrespect taken. My post was accurate. Please re-read my post:

"STD screenings don't test for herpes so you need to specify to them that you want herpes testing in addition to standard STD's. I had to wait 2 weeks for standard STD testing but if they do a visual and suspect something they might start you on antibiotics just to be safe."

I stated "standard STD testing", which I explained does not cover herpes. Standard STD testing does cover bacterial infections such as gonorrhea, chlamydia, syphilis, etc... thus why I mentioned the antibiotics.

[Caliope]

This is a herpes forum but I think it's good to point out that different std's might have different treatments.

Some of us take for granted all the knowledge we've collected since high school and don't realize what a asset it is to share that information with others who might not be getting all of the facts.

I really appreciate what I've learned here.

[Josh1234]

so what would you say the chances are i have herpes by looking at the pictures, lol im 15 and im smashed ive drunk about 30 units of alch and changed this loads of imemx bout the spelling lol i run away today how fun gtt borin tho lol cudnt b bothered to upset ma mum!!!!!!!! so anyway wts the chances this is herpes?

[WaxedWrong]

grow up kid.

[ouch]

yeah kid, rather than get drunk (which can aggravate the situation if it IS herpes) go to a health clinic and tell them you think you have been exposed to herpes, have symptoms and want testing! Don't fart around with this. At least then you will know for sure.

I am sure your mum would be much more proud of you if you took responsibilities for your actions, rather than get drunk and run away. That is lame.

[Caliope]

Only some of us can view your pictures and only if we've been members for a designated amount of time. That leaves me out.

You're disrespecting yourself and that's really sad. If I was your mom that would disappoint me. I'm sure that she'd rather know that you're taking care of yourself.

Quit running away from your problems and pretending they'll just go away cuz they won't. Talk to your mom or some adult that you trust and see a dr.

We can't diagnose you on this forum only a dr can.

[Josh1234]

ok obviously getting drunk isnt the answer i know that and anways have, its just something i do for fun.

no i run away because

my neighbours are trying to get me kickout of my house

im on bail for about 9 different things suck as abh, gbh ect...

my mum is having a nervous breakdown beause of me

my shcool like is fucked up

and then i find out i may have herpes

i think theres enough reasons there to make many people run away....

sorry for that post anyway ill try not to come hear when im drunk.

[WaxedWrong]

everything thats happening to you is because of you.

fix yourself, and you will fix your problems.

[Caliope]

Josh I don't want to get down on you because it's not easy to be a teen. I just want to encourage you to take a look at what's going on and realize that this is a good time to try to get a handle on stuff. You're sure getting a lot of reality checks by your own admission.

I'm sorry it's so hard for you but I guarantee that if you make the right choices things can improve. It sounds like your mom loves you alot or she wouldn't be so upset maybe you can be a source of support for her by going to her and ask for her help so you can get stuff straightened out. It would be the mature thing to do and you could benefit from the experience.

And yeah it's not easy to go to our parents and tell them what's going on. Sometimes they seem like the enemy because they want to enforce rules etc. that seem stupid but usually parents have your best interest in mind and want to see you be happy.

[JRTJRT]

Josh

I would highly recommend you get a mentor in your life, especially if you do not have a male figurehead to guide you in life. Do you have a father figure who has taught you how to discipline yourself? I am not talking about religion (although some people do find help in religion) or a school counselor. I am talking about an older male who you can go to to ask for guidance and help - a relative or neighbor or someone you aspire to be like, who you can talk to. You need guidance and discipline.

You have to initiate this if it is going to happen. Unfortunately the odds are that you will not. People who need mentoring are usually the type who do not ask for help. I am over twice your age and am looking for someone to mentor me, and possibly a younger person who I can mentor.

Most people would be more than willing to help you out, and give quite a lot to make a difference in your life. Trust me on this.

[Josh1234]

nah i cba with that i wana be my own person and im yet to find someone that i wana grow up to be like...n when i realise i look up to sum1 they always seem to be the sorta people that are in n out of prison n i think i could do that on my own withough following there footsteps.

im pretty happy with my life atm just wana sort this herpes shit out lol i aint reli to bothered bout it now.

[Caliope]

can I say that I am more than a little irritated with your attitude. why be so selfish as to beg for advice and then brush it all away with a comment like I wanna be my own person. I call that crying wolf. you wasted my time.

we all wanna be our own person. A mentor is someone who you can go to when things aren't so clear and they can advise you and you can have the support of not being completely in the dark.

if the only people you admire end up being criminals then i'd say that you have a perception problem about what to emulate not who.

i was once like you. no one gave a damn. i had sex at 14 and got std's. had a kid at 16 all alone and no job. did drugs, cut school and treated myself like i was disposable. i had friends dying all around me. i can tell you what hell i went through but you wanna be your own person and you won't listen anyway. i wish someone gave a damn about me when i was 14 just so i could hear what they had to say - not because i couldn't think for myself but because they might know something i didn't and it helps to have someone listen to your point of view sometimes and say hey you're full of shit maybe you want to approach things a different way. none of my old friends are around any more. i'm the only one who made it out. its sad to look back and see what coulda been. but you wanna be your own person - funny how that comes back to bite us.

[Josh1234]

i think you took my last comment the wrong way and im sorry if i have annoyed you, my first few comments were way o.t.t going on about how worried n shit, simply because i had only just relised it could be herpies and i was talking to sum1 on msn who made it sounds alllot worse, however the more i read the less i worrie.

o yea weird thing is tho i get a really sick feeling whenever i think about it to much lol

[Caliope]

I saw your pictures and they are disturbing. you've got something going on and it aint pretty. since it could get worse over time you might want to get help asap.

things that go unchecked that aren't herpes can be dangerous. yeah I had a family member who never got treated for syphilis and they went blind and crazy. the initial symptoms went away and they thought they were fine. took a lot of years but it coulda been avoided.

I wish you gave a damn about yourself but i don't think you'll take anyones advice. then i fear you'll go on your merry way and give what ever you got to someone else. it's hard to respect someone who won't respect themself.

[ouch]

The syphllis issue...

I can't remember which thread I brought it up in, but a few days ago I mentioned that a rash like breakout CAN very well be symptoms for syphliis. Rather than the tell-tale sign of chancre, there is just a wide spread rash. can be on the genitals or on the torso or even on the thighs.

While Syphllis IS curable, if left untreated and able to go through its various stages, it CAN CAUSE BLINDNESS OR INSANITY!!!!! And there has been a HUGE resurgence of this particular disease.

So don't shilly-shally around. Get off yer arse, and get to the clinic as soon as possible. Stop looking up to hoodlums as "mentors" or people to idolize, stop getting Brahms, stop worrying about this bird or that, and get this all sorted out. Please. And once you get THIS little business all sorted out, perhaps start looking within and getting yourself sorted out in general. You can still be individial and unique.....without getting yourself in trouble.

Caliope....methinks this is a lot of teen-lust-male-bravado at work here. 15...oh yeah, remember 15??!! We knew EVERYTHING, right? I am not mad at the kid, I just want him to get it together and take care of himself, I don't consider a 15 year old a waste of time....but certainly EXASPERATING!