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San antonio.....25 just found out today

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FML123

Hey guys...well i just found out today. I cried and cried. I feel so alone and dont know who to talk to. All i can think about is what man will ever want me? I feel like theres no out. Please somebody say something positive.

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Pepper77

I just found out last week but had my first emotional break down today. I just sat here on the couch and sobbed. I have only told one friend who lives in another state and she was supportive, but doesn't really understand what I'm going through. I have to say the thing that has helped the most is this site. I have posted a few things and gotten some responses, but just reading other peoples' stories really helps me to not feel so alone. Some days I just read about other peoples' struggles, but tonight I tried to read a lot of positive stories. Hearing people talk about how they managed to find love after their HSV diagnosis and even have children is very encouraging. I am sure this will get harder before it gets better, but hang in there. You are definitely not alone in this.

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FML123

Thanks Pepper! I have faith in God and know it will be okay. There is worse such as cancer or death. Yet when I found out I thought death didn't seem like such a bad idea. I thought who's going to marry me? How with this affect my babies when i had them (this was my main concern). and the pain! ugh!!!! i was like omg what if i have an outbreak every month and it hurts this bad every time?! my doctor hugged me and kept telling me you are not the only student in school that has this so relax...its COMMON! I keep hearing it only gets better. I guess right now i feel theres no hope since i just got it yesterday! i still have all the flu symptoms besides a burning vagina. Well I am off to help give healthcare to homeless people. I didnt want to go because i am depressed but this is something I do often...i told myself i cant stop living life.

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Thanks Pepper! I have faith in God and know it will be okay. There is worse such as cancer or death. Yet when I found out I thought death didn't seem like such a bad idea. I thought who's going to marry me? How with this affect my babies when i had them (this was my main concern). and the pain! ugh!!!! i was like omg what if i have an outbreak every month and it hurts this bad every time?! my doctor hugged me and kept telling me you are not the only student in school that has this so relax...its COMMON! I keep hearing it only gets better. I guess right now i feel theres no hope since i just got it yesterday! i still have all the flu symptoms besides a burning vagina. Well I am off to help give healthcare to homeless people. I didnt want to go because i am depressed but this is something I do often...i told myself i cant stop living life.

We have all felt that way when we first got diagnosed. I too was very disgusted with myself. I was married (newly wed) when I got h , only 2 partner I ever had and I was shattered. I met a guy, while getting divorced we knew of each other but not about each other. He stayed after I blurted out " I have genital herpes and I get from my ex hubby" ..I wanted him to run but he stayed and now we jut celebrated 22 yrs of marriage , we also have a daughter too, one which I was told I could never have . So you can live a good life with h. I give my h no control over my life! I give it no powers to what I will or can have. I live very normal life and I have unconditional love. Its all I ever wnated and I felt at 26 (when I got my H ) that I was doomed. NOT true, many will stay and they will not run from this pittful little virus. Back 24 years ago we didnt have all this great support or informations or internets either :( .. It was hard but in a way it wa good. No way to be educated , so no fears or worries from scary pictures or stories you se on facebooks. It was simple , we just lived and after two years we got married and then we had a daughter and life was good better now with h , then it ever was without herps. So stay and relax and settle in and read all you can about h, here in our lovely herpes library located on the right side of the front forum page. Also did you know that being female , if your h is genital, it is harder for females to transmitt the h. LOL.. See we do have one advantage over guys. Take care and I hope to meet you soon. Hugs, Truly Ace :hithere:

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