Jump to content
World's Largest Herpes Support Group
Sign in to follow this  
Coutinho

A Promise to myself, & is Herpes a Social Death Sentence? WARNING a bit long

Recommended Posts

Coutinho

This all very new to me and it's not ideal. I don't know if i believe that everything happens for a reason but i do see the comfort in that thought. Regardless things happen, some good some bad, and it is our choice to make the best of what we've been dealt. I've had a good life so far (i'm only 27, just so you know), I've had my struggles in life without a doubt but this is the first real big issue (it's an issue now) I've dealt with that i never expected to happen and really made me question myself and see myself in a negative light (which i shouldn't). So in a way i should be thankful.

Shit happens and I'm starting to accept that. I know I've made some bad choices in my life and that's partially what led me to being here, accepting this will take time especially that I have always considered myself a very intelligent and moral person and this condition makes me question some decisions, and feel guilty for others but no ones perfect, its part of the human condition. I don't deserve this but who deserves getting cancer, or getting hit by a car. I'm not at all to blame and it sucks knowing someone is going around spreading this, although she knows what she has. But i'm getting over that, i really am. It makes it hard to realize that we aren't perfect, but really who is...no one is. And really what is perfection?

We need to accept that we aren't...its always been the case, H just brings that more to light in our minds and that's a hard pill to swallow. I have always kept fit and kept in shape but i have small ankles, i wish i was a bit taller, I wish i didn't have this small scar on my face, i wish i was more assertive at times, etc. I know this isn't the same but in some ways it is. Some of these things i change some i cant. Herpes is something we can't change, so if we want to better ourselves we have to use this affliction to propel ourselves and change those things we might not have otherwise. Make H the reason to become even better then you were before H, because if it wasn't for this i wouldn't push so hard to become better. The only way i can make a positive out of this is if i make it happen, I know this is the push that will force me to go even further then i would ever done before. I've always been motivated but I hope this will force me to a new level and i'll be better for it. Or else yes, its just sad, because I'm obviously in a worse position. Sorry for my language but fuck herpes...seriously. I will become the best me i can...this i promise! This is the promise I'm making to myself and I hope some of you feel the same.

All you have is you, that's all you've ever had and that's all you will ever have. I know that sounds strange and maybe depressing but you really are the only person that can make yourself happy, that was the case before H and it is still the reality now. Its just going to be harder. I know i will have many ups and downs but we all have them in life, i will probably just have more then i was expecting so i need to prepare for them.

We are still as amazing as we were before, and for me i don't want that person to slip away, as I have for the last month or so. Again i know it will be harder...that's why instead of sitting around I'm going to hit the gym, eat healthy, read, get into some new hobbies and just be amazing. I was pretty awesome before all of this...although this has crushed by spirits to an extent and cost me an awesome gf of 2 years, things happen...and I'm finally starting to realize this...it will be a challenging road a head but it will make everything that i gain and earn in this life that much sweeter. People say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, i agree with that statement but only if you make yourself evolve into that person you've always wanted to be. Cause you could just very easily let this take over your life, and that might very well be easier. In the end its your choice.

Good luck to you all, i know this won't be easy but my happiness is worth fighting for and i will not give up... NEVER!

Here are 2 inspirational clips, some might think these are lame but these have always helped me...now more then ever.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-L1stBkpWBc

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xt0Fb72XDzU

On a side note...I saw someone say on a post that Herpes is a social death sentence, its far from it. It is only if you let it. In terms of relationships with that someone special that's a different story, it will be more challenging. Go out be social, establish and maintain friendships how else do you expect to meet the people that you will eventually want to be in your lives forever, or maintain those social skills that will help you woe that someone special. The more amazing you are, the happier you are people will not be able to resist you. If i'm not happy who will want to be with me. I owe it to myself and that person to be happy...this is another promise i'm making to myself.

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
dangitinAL

That is all we can all do for ourselves. There are good days and bad days.. but in the end it is still up to you to make yourself happy.

If you love yourself, how can others not love you?

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
Acesheart
This all very new to me and it's not ideal. I don't know if i believe that everything happens for a reason but i do see the comfort in that thought. Regardless things happen, some good some bad, and it is our choice to make the best of what we've been dealt. I've had a good life so far (i'm only 27, just so you know), I've had my struggles in life without a doubt but this is the first real big issue (it's an issue now) I've dealt with that i never expected to happen and really made me question myself and see myself in a negative light (which i shouldn't). So in a way i should be thankful.

Shit happens and I'm starting to accept that. I know I've made some bad choices in my life and that's partially what led me to being here, accepting this will take time especially that I have always considered myself a very intelligent and moral person and this condition makes me question some decisions, and feel guilty for others but no ones perfect, its part of the human condition. I don't deserve this but who deserves getting cancer, or getting hit by a car. I'm not at all to blame and it sucks knowing someone is going around spreading this, although she knows what she has. But i'm getting over that, i really am. It makes it hard to realize that we aren't perfect, but really who is...no one is. And really what is perfection?

We need to accept that we aren't...its always been the case, H just brings that more to light in our minds and that's a hard pill to swallow. I have always kept fit and kept in shape but i have small ankles, i wish i was a bit taller, I wish i didn't have this small scar on my face, i wish i was more assertive at times, etc. I know this isn't the same but in some ways it is. Some of these things i change some i cant. Herpes is something we can't change, so if we want to better ourselves we have to use this affliction to propel ourselves and change those things we might not have otherwise. Make H the reason to become even better then you were before H, because if it wasn't for this i wouldn't push so hard to become better. The only way i can make a positive out of this is if i make it happen, I know this is the push that will force me to go even further then i would ever done before. I've always been motivated but I hope this will force me to a new level and i'll be better for it. Or else yes, its just sad, because I'm obviously in a worse position. Sorry for my language but fuck herpes...seriously. I will become the best me i can...this i promise! This is the promise I'm making to myself and I hope some of you feel the same.

All you have is you, that's all you've ever had and that's all you will ever have. I know that sounds strange and maybe depressing but you really are the only person that can make yourself happy, that was the case before H and it is still the reality now. Its just going to be harder. I know i will have many ups and downs but we all have them in life, i will probably just have more then i was expecting so i need to prepare for them.

We are still as amazing as we were before, and for me i don't want that person to slip away, as I have for the last month or so. Again i know it will be harder...that's why instead of sitting around I'm going to hit the gym, eat healthy, read, get into some new hobbies and just be amazing. I was pretty awesome before all of this...although this has crushed by spirits to an extent and cost me an awesome gf of 2 years, things happen...and I'm finally starting to realize this...it will be a challenging road a head but it will make everything that i gain and earn in this life that much sweeter. People say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, i agree with that statement but only if you make yourself evolve into that person you've always wanted to be. Cause you could just very easily let this take over your life, and that might very well be easier. In the end its your choice.

Good luck to you all, i know this won't be easy but my happiness is worth fighting for and i will not give up... NEVER!

Here are 2 inspirational clips, some might think these are lame but these have always helped me...now more then ever.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-L1stBkpWBc

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xt0Fb72XDzU

On a side note...I saw someone say on a post that Herpes is a social death sentence, its far from it. It is only if you let it. In terms of relationships with that someone special that's a different story, it will be more challenging. Go out be social, establish and maintain friendships how else do you expect to meet the people that you will eventually want to be in your lives forever, or maintain those social skills that will help you woe that someone special. The more amazing you are, the happier you are people will not be able to resist you. If i'm not happy who will want to be with me. I owe it to myself and that person to be happy...this is another promise i'm making to myself.

Hey Cout, I was so inspired by your post! :) It is certainly wonderful to see your spirit shine on. One day here and already you are showing great support and coping skills. It really gives many hope to see your post. Thanks for that, btw it wasn't that long , lmao..It was however refreshing to read and it did make me smile ;) ..Take care honey, Truly, Ace :hithere:

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
Cruella de Vil

Hi Coutin,

I couldn't have said it better.

Thank you for sharing,

You inspire me!

Take care

Bye

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
Vidhya

Coutinho is a Galician-Portuguese surname, interesting.

Wonderful that you're trying to help others, and some sentences are very inspirational! I thank you for sharing this, though I never find this kind of text, rooted in North-American perceptions, stigma and stereotypes about HSV, very helpful, being an European. It always sounds depressing beyond belief :))) But thank you for trying to help.

If I had to translate this into Spanish, Italian or French, it would go like this "Cold Sore and Social Death". Try replacing the word "herpes" everywhere - which is the word we use both for lip herpes and genital herpes - with "cold sore" and see how it sounds. For non-English speakers it does look odd. As the member Mcnulty wrote once, by using the word "herpes" for both "cold sores" and "genital herpes", we almost completely destigmatise the condition in most places. "Herpes" is rarely a scary word.

it would be something like this:

A Promise to myself, & are Cold Sores a Social Death Sentence? WARNING a bit long

This all very new to me and it's not ideal. I don't know if i believe that everything happens for a reason but i do see the comfort in that thought. Regardless things happen, some good some bad, and it is our choice to make the best of what we've been dealt. I've had a good life so far (i'm only 27, just so you know), I've had my struggles in life without a doubt but this is the first real big issue (it's an issue now) I've dealt with that i never expected to happen and really made me question myself and see myself in a negative light (which i shouldn't). So in a way i should be thankful.

Shit happens and I'm starting to accept that. I know I've made some bad choices in my life and that's partially what led me to being here, accepting this will take time especially that I have always considered myself a very intelligent and moral person and this condition makes me question some decisions, and feel guilty for others but no ones perfect, its part of the human condition. I don't deserve this but who deserves getting cancer, or getting hit by a car. I'm not at all to blame and it sucks knowing someone is going around spreading this, although she knows what she has. But i'm getting over that, i really am. It makes it hard to realize that we aren't perfect, but really who is...no one is. And really what is perfection?

We need to accept that we aren't...its always been the case, COLD SORES just brings that more to light in our minds and that's a hard pill to swallow. I have always kept fit and kept in shape but i have small ankles, i wish i was a bit taller, I wish i didn't have this small scar on my face, i wish i was more assertive at times, etc. I know this isn't the same but in some ways it is. Some of these things i change some i cant. Cold sores is something we can't change, so if we want to better ourselves we have to use this affliction to propel ourselves and change those things we might not have otherwise. Make COLD SORES the reason to become even better then you were before COLD SORES, because if it wasn't for this i wouldn't push so hard to become better. The only way i can make a positive out of this is if i make it happen, I know this is the push that will force me to go even further then i would ever done before. I've always been motivated but I hope this will force me to a new level and i'll be better for it. Or else yes, its just sad, because I'm obviously in a worse position. Sorry for my language but fuck cold sores...seriously. I will become the best me i can...this i promise! This is the promise I'm making to myself and I hope some of you feel the same.

All you have is you, that's all you've ever had and that's all you will ever have. I know that sounds strange and maybe depressing but you really are the only person that can make yourself happy, that was the case before COLD SORES and it is still the reality now. Its just going to be harder. I know i will have many ups and downs but we all have them in life, i will probably just have more then i was expecting so i need to prepare for them.

We are still as amazing as we were before, and for me i don't want that person to slip away, as I have for the last month or so. Again i know it will be harder...that's why instead of sitting around I'm going to hit the gym, eat healthy, read, get into some new hobbies and just be amazing. I was pretty awesome before all of this...although this has crushed by spirits to an extent and cost me an awesome gf of 2 years, things happen...and I'm finally starting to realize this...it will be a challenging road a head but it will make everything that i gain and earn in this life that much sweeter. People say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, i agree with that statement but only if you make yourself evolve into that person you've always wanted to be. Cause you could just very easily let this take over your life, and that might very well be easier. In the end its your choice.

Good luck to you all, i know this won't be easy but my happiness is worth fighting for and i will not give up... NEVER!

Here are 2 inspirational clips, some might think these are lame but these have always helped me...now more then ever.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-L1stBkpWBc

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xt0Fb72XDzU

On a side note...I saw someone say on a post that Cold Sores is a social death sentence, its far from it. It is only if you let it. In terms of relationships with that someone special that's a different story, it will be more challenging. Go out be social, establish and maintain friendships how else do you expect to meet the people that you will eventually want to be in your lives forever, or maintain those social skills that will help you woe that someone special. The more amazing you are, the happier you are people will not be able to resist you. If i'm not happy who will want to be with me. I owe it to myself and that person to be happy...this is another promise i'm making to myself.

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
Rob1125

Coutinho, awesome post! I really like the last couple lines, "The more amazing you are, the happier you are people will not be able to resist you. If i'm not happy who will want to be with me. I owe it to myself and that person to be happy" This is hard to argue with, and although success will likely not come without it's struggles, I love the idea that success will likely only come with this kind of attitude; and that truly having this attitude will not only bread success, but happiness for life in general as well. Good luck with your future relationships Coutinho, I'm sure your success isn't too far away!

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

Join the conversation

You can post now and register later. If you have an account, sign in now to post with your account.

Guest
Reply to this topic...

×   Pasted as rich text.   Paste as plain text instead

  Only 75 emoji are allowed.

×   Your link has been automatically embedded.   Display as a link instead

×   Your previous content has been restored.   Clear editor

×   You cannot paste images directly. Upload or insert images from URL.

Sign in to follow this  

  • The Hive is Thriving!

    • Total Topics
      69,592
    • Total Posts
      468,814
  • Posts

    • MaxTX
      Hello, thank you for your generous donation. I donated on Monday after finding the amazing work that has been done. I got a lot of answers from this forum and I hope more people get involved.  Donation send a great message of the interest that we have for a cure. Thank you and I really believe the cure is in the next couple of years. 
    • Inevitablecur3
      I’m bringing us to 20k; I really believe in the research the Jerome lab is doing and want it to cure everyone.
    • Inevitablecur3
      I think people are discouraged by past failures but remember in failure, new things are learned and the progress on understanding hsv is increasing. Up until Jerome’s lab devised a way to attack the latent virus in 2012 there was never a way to potentially cure it; now there is. Couple in the advancements in technology and I think there’s more hope now than ever that it can be cured in the near future.
    • infoguy123
      That's actually a comforting statistic
    • Misterx
      Because it is still a non curable threat in community. Whether it's a small group of people who experience the most severe symptoms, they're still people, just like you. Hsv prevalence will only grow due to lack of effectiveness of treatment and eventual resistance of virus. The virus will infect more and more people and this virus will and may affect your quality of life and in some rare cases it may lead to severe complications and blindness, meningitis etc. Last time I checked by 2025, US will have half of its population infected genital herpes. Do you think WOH and health community will like that?
×
×
  • Create New...

Important Information

We have placed cookies on your device to help make this website better. You can adjust your cookie settings, otherwise we'll assume you're okay to continue.