I recommend that you find someone who has herpes and ask them to infect you. That way, at least you can finally get over your anxiety and test positive. Until then, please delete your profile and get back to living
Lisajd.. It was just all of a sudden at 3 weeks of age and with hsv CNS-irritability was one of the biggest symptoms.. So I immediately thought this was associated with hsv.. My baby is 5 months old and I feel like the sleeping is just getting worse..
I really do believe that I had hsv 2 during delivery or atleast shedding the virus because I had a sore that developed a week after birth..I also had premature rupture of membranes and they did q couple exams during the delivery.. My baby also swallowed myconium so there were so many ways of her getting the virus.. My baby also showed so many symptoms associated with herpes.. If it was herpes encephalitis or meningitis, it would have caused brain damage to her and that's why I believe she has a problem with sleeping.. I keep reading that babies would develop cerebral palsy have so many similar symptoms.. If she had hsv CNS and kept having these recurrences wouldn't she need to be admitted and received acyclovir? Even if she didn't present to be very sick? I'm scared that she showed symptoms of meningitis when she was a newborn and that I missed them as new born symptoms and the damage has been done and just getting worse if she keeps having outbreaks.. They swabbed her mucous membranes before the outbreaks at 5 weeks old by PCR.. But my concern is that the virus may not have been present at that time in her membranes.. When I asked for a reswab they didn't think it was necessary since the other ones were already negative.. Do you think that if these were hsv outbreaks and they kept reoccurring she would be getting worse? I keep reading that deactivation of virus with reoccurrences is a grave prognosis.. Also I kept reading how serology isn't of any benefit since the baby doesn't develop antibodies to hsv till 6-12 months..
It is as imsulting as people who join up saying they are scared they have herpes because they touched a wet door handle in a public toilet or their underwear went in with their flatmates and they dont know about their std status
@Pretty I suppose I was in a very similar situation to you and also at your age... I did write the lady I wanted to be with a letter (which she read in front of me) outlining honestly what had happened and how much I loved her.. To an extent my letter expressed that she would be better off without me...She did not choose that option and refused to accept a life without me.... If he truly does love you then he will feel the same way. Best of luck