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I never thought this could happen to me. I scared. I cant quit crying. I dont what to do. Test results will be back Monday. I am sure they are postive. I have all the symptoms. I feel like this is the end of the world. I was just getting my life back together after going thur a divorce. How do I tell my grown daughters their mother has herpies. What if infected by grandson before I knew I had this. The gulit and shame is so over wheming. I havnt told anyone. I cant. I keep searching the internet hoping to find another illness that has these symptoms also. Hoping i have that illness instead of herpies. I have been praying to God to help me. But why would he I have not been the most christan person. I feel like like I am being punished for my sins. I cant quit shaking. I will be a lone for the rest of my life

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Praying - take it one step at a time. It's the only way to get through it. Worry about what your life will be like after the test isn't going to help you get through the next few days.

I had to wait over a weekend to get my results back.

It's a scientific fact that if you distract yourself from your big worry, for even a few moments, you worry less, and will feel better.

It was hard for me to keep the test out of my mind while I waited the weekend. But I did it and I bet you can too.

Maybe it will be negative and this worry is for nothing. If you do end up being positive, then you can deal with that when you know for sure. It's so much easier to deal with facts than to fight phantoms in your mind. I know this not just from my own situation, but also from all the other intense situations I've been in during various parts of my life.

Keep logging back into this forum and read what people have to say. Education, knowledge and support are some fo the best defenses for fear and anxiety.

If you can find someone you trust, share your worry and ask for support to get you through the next few days.

Another thought that's been in my head, and while it's my situation, I'm pretty sure it's not unique.

I strongly suspect I have had this virus for years and didn't know it(check my other posts). In searching for a way to be calm, I realized that the only difference between this exact moment in time and before is that I have a report showing "positive".

Not thinking about tomorrow or next week or next year, I realize that I'm the same as before with the one single exception that now I know one bit of new information.

Once I realized that, it hit me that I was causing myself to freak out. It's my internal dialog, my self esteem issues, my view of right and wrong, my typical human reaction of thinking only the absolute worst can happen and my sense of what's shameful that was causing me mental and physical trauma.

Only me and nothing more.

This realization helped me start to slowly, step by step, see that "the end of the world" was only in my head. With this realization, I reached out to someone and shared my situation, a little of my fear and asked for support. This person didn't judge, didn't damn me to hell and just listened. I was lucky to pick the right person.

It also it made me realize that I could keep causing myself trauma and drama or I could use this single bit of new information to help me be a better person, starting from the inside and working my way out.

I prayed for guidance too. I don't know what will happen, but after I did, I felt better. I'll say one for you now too.

Just remember you're not alone and the people on this board have been where you are now and have found out they were positive. In other words, you're not alone.

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Hi there praying,

You will find support in the many people here who understand.

Whatnext said it Beautifully!!

Take care of yourself!

You are going to be alright

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Dear Praying

Like whatnext said in the above post, don't condemn yourself, keep praying cause you will get the needed strength to get through this, if in fact, it is true. Remember, although this is a lifelong illness....it could be a lot worst! Let's thank God that it isn't!

btw, I don't think you owe any of your children an explanation, although it is your choice....but why tell them? Is it for support, sympathy, etc.? I personally can't see myself telling my adult children cause I have my own acceptance issues to contend with first....perhaps this is not the case for you, and good luck if that's what you decide to do (again....if the results are positive).

I will be praying for you in the meantime...........keep us posted!

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I just found a spot on inside of my top lip. I have one daughter and my grandson living with me. I scared to hold him. Its breaking my heart to see him cry when I wont pick him up. I feel so dirty. I dont think I handle this for the rest of my life

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Keep praying for guidance and courage. Wait for the test results before you let your mind go crazy over it.

Have you ever had to pick up your grandson when you had a cold or flu and he didn't? Maybe there's knowledge from your past interactions that can serve you in handling this one.

I've been wasting time recently wondering about bug bites. Maybe the new spot has nothing to do with what you think it does.

I'm still praying for you. :)

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