Just found out

[Catt36]

Well hello to everyone here! My story is an extremely interesting one, I have to say, at least I think so. About 3 months ago I met a man on the internet. We talked just as friends for about 2 months, he wanted to date me but I am 36 and he is only 25, so I had some reservations because of that. But the more I talked to him and got to know him, the more I realized that our ages was a stupid reason not to give this guy a chance. So, about 2 weeks ago we started talking on the phone, at least five times a day every day. I have never in my life experienced sexual chemistry with someone over the telephone or fallen in love with someone just by talking, without having met face to face. But with this guy I have experienced both. A few days ago, we began telling each other that we loved each other and made plans for him to come here (we live in different states) to live with me. I cannot even begin to tell you how much I care for this guy. I have had many bad relationships in my dating history (abuse, rape, etc.) and this guy is so totally different from any guy I've ever been with. I used to base my dating choices on looks alone, if I thought the guy was good looking enough, I'd date him, if not I wouldnt. Recently my daughter told me that that was shallow and the more I thought about it the more I realized she was right and that really upset me, because I always used to think I wasn't a judgmental person. So, when I met this guy online, even though he wasn't "my type" and I decided to talk to him anyway. Now, I've come to realize what I've been missing all my life in a relationship.

Last night when he called, he said he had something very important to tell me. He said he has herpes. I was floored and will admit that my first thought was, "Why God?" "Why did you send a perfect guy my way, only to throw this at me?" He said he was terrified that I would now reject him and it was the hardest thing he's ever had to do in his life by telling me, but he couldn't be cruel enough to not tell me. Because our plans include him moving in with me in two weeks from now, he wanted to give me the chance to decide if I still wanted to go through with it or not. For that, I think I love him even more than I did before. We had a longggggggg talk about the whole thing, how to deal with sex, etc. and I will admit that I no longer wanted to have sex with him. I didn't want to risk getting it. He said he understood, but couldn't have a relationship with me and not be able to make love to me, that's why he wanted me to decide if I still wanted him to come here. I made the decision that I love this guy enough to weather whatever storm comes our way, even herpes. But, I'm still scared and confused and needing any advice that I can get. So anything at all that someone can tell me would be greatly appreciated. I dont really have any questions as I thoroughly researched the disease as soon as I found out. But support is what I'm looking for. I can well imagine that we will have our share of difficulties in dealing with this disease.