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Hello to all,

I am a 24 year old female, and I just found out TODAY that I tested positive for Herpes. I just recently graduated with my masters. I am so upset and disappointed in myself for not taking care of myself. I have ruined my life. I thank God that I have a supportive boyfriend (he didn't infect me, some loser from my past did) and family members because otherwise I don't know what I would do. Even though they are supportive they can never truly understand the embarassment and pain I feel inside. One day I would like to get married and have kids, and well I'm scared I may have ruined my chances of that ever happening. Someone talk to me please.

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Hello to all,

I am a 24 year old female, and I just found out TODAY that I tested positive for Herpes. I just recently graduated with my masters. I am so upset and disappointed in myself for not taking care of myself. I have ruined my life. I thank God that I have a supportive boyfriend (he didn't infect me, some loser from my past did) and family members because otherwise I don't know what I would do. Even though they are supportive they can never truly understand the embarassment and pain I feel inside. One day I would like to get married and have kids, and well I'm scared I may have ruined my chances of that ever happening. Someone talk to me please.

I know that right now things may seem dim, but you really do have a bright future ahead of you. Remember Herpes does not define who you are. I felt devastaed when I found out about my diagnosis in Dec. Get cunseling if you need to . It sounds like you are fortunate to have a supportive boyfriend and family.

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I have so many questions and concerns. I feel so gross and ashamed. How have you managed to move on with your life? I just want to crawl under a rock and die.

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Hi! I don't really know what to tell you except I just got the confirmation from them today, although the past week it's been pretty obvious (owies). I had my 30 minutes of crying and being upset, then snapped out of it. I mean, it's not my fault and it's not your fault. We tried, we did our best right? I got STD testing, I did the condom thing, I never saw any kind of symptoms from anyone and never dated anyone with a cold sore. But it happened anyway; it's like a freaking super bug or something.

We aren't bad people and we can't change the past. It's something I'm going to get over in a few days (symptom wise) and hopefully I won't have another recurrence. I'm trying to take a lot of vitamins including lysine, and I'm trying the H-Balm and H-Balm daily. My boyfriend and I have been making a lot of jokes about it and that's helped out a lot. I'm still the hot sexy chica I was before, I just have to be careful and pay attention to my body. And besides, haven't you been reading about it? MILLIONS of people have it. It's not like we're a select few dirty people. Heck no! We're still awesome.

Attitude is everything...and I hope you can come to realize that you aren't a bad person you just have a little bug that'll pop out once in awhile. I hope you can come to realize that yourself.

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it really aint that bad TBH - it hasnt changed anytihng about me, apart from the fact i now worship my girlfriend, who has decided she loves me enuff to see past the whole Herpes thing..

i dont do anything differently - i drink, smoke, eat crap food, burn the candle at boths ends a live a full life.. along with my gorgeous girlfriend..

dont let this define who you are, and what you want to do....

as time goes by, you start forgetting you even have it, i do each nite, until i come on ere that is.. but i like the fact i can pass on some advice to poeple, cus without people to talk to it can feel like your all alone with no way out.

i find that since i stopped caring about it, i havent had an OB.

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hope?

I don't have any advice for you just yet as I only found out on Friday and its now sunday night. But I do have support. I'm only 20 and had been dating the same wonderful guy since I was still in highschool. I recently moved to a new city and he did as well and it was really hard for the both of us. i broke it off with him because I felt I needed to see what else was out there and get a normal college experiance. well I started seeing this guy who was nice and funny and well I was stupid and slept with him and now here I am, with my fun new disease. i dont know what to do now, i alternate between insane anger and crushing sadness. i feel disgusting, dirty, like damaged goods. i told my ex, he says he still loves me and he wants to try and make it work, which actually makes me feel worse. How can someone love me when I'm, I'm tainted. I guess I'm not great with support, but just know, i guess everyone goes through it. They all say it gets better, it gets easier. Here's hoping right?

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