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Mellisuga

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Mellisuga

Life's treating me really well, I have to admit. I'm happy.

I try to focus on superficial things, because honestly, if left alone and allowed to let my mind wander...

I start thinking I'm absolutely disgusting.

It's a new little dark place that just feels so hopeless. I feel like I want to cut something out of me that can't be removed. I begin to relive those feelings of having no one to connect to.

I just hate that I could work on all the insecurities I've had for YEARS, get those erased if I tried hard enough and become the person I always wanted to be - but I could never get rid of this.

All things considered though, on most days I'm ok. I think. I'm still here, aren't I? :)

Just had to vent a bit. I feel like my trust has been damaged a lot more than my body has, in all honesty.

Herpes can't be that big of a deal. I just don't feel that way yet, unfortunately.

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Mellisuga

You know what guys? I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels this way. At the same time, not everyone feels this way either.

Herpes is not worth fricken sweating over. There comes a point where sympathy won't work anymore.

You have to straight up give this thing the finger and keep walking.

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pink_peony

I totally feel the same way. But it somehow feels like being on a roller coaster, at times everything seems so normal, yet behind that smile/laugh I feel that I'm no longer who I am just a month ago...This is probably just one part of the multiple health shocks that we'll have...it's easy to say there's more to life than herpes...sigh

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visiwave

Hey melissa, do you go to uga? because i just graduated from there.

Anyway it sounds to me you have the right attitude. Sympathy is like alcohol. It helps temporarily, but it doesn't move you forward. Keep giving it the finger and when you absolutely can't anymore, come drop us another few lines ;)

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