what is this? have a I spread it all over my body?

[sagebrush0768]

I went to the emergency room last night as I thought I was having some disseminated hsv 2 outbreak. My hands and feet have been tingling, crawling, and hot for the past few days with a few diffuse red bumps spread over my hands. I thought it was mosquitoes or something. Yesterday, I realized my hands were clammy, swollen, and had developed a lacy rash (white and red), that the rash was also on my thighs, and my vagina. My vagina was swollen. I had a unusually amount of discharge and my vagina also seemed clammy. This all happened very quickly as I would have noticed it before as I have been compulsively checking my vagina for any changes as I am not sure if I have hsv 2 yet, though I really do think so. I saw one red spot on my hip, small, that definitely stung to touch and that has now healed over with a honey colored look. I had a few more red dots develop on my knees and on my ankle. Also on my hands I had very small pin prick sized dots that stung, as if they were open, to touch. All these spots had a very quick onset. I had the same pin prick dots which stung on my right arm, and one on my chest, and on my abdomen. my cheeks feel hot and I have the same small dots and maybe almost cuts on both cheeks. My mouth is also tingling and hot with definite inflammation, an abrasion on the inside upper lip and the skin in various places of my lip looks like it wants to blister. My eyes feel inflamed, blood shot, and I had a white mucous coming from the corners. I have tinnitus and feel hot all over, no fever. My stomach hurts. General malaise. The doctors refused to believe me. They thought I had a vitamin deficiency as I had told them I had lost a lot of weight over the past months (purposefully), hadn’t had my period one month. I told them this so that they would understand that I think I am immunodeficient. My hsv 2 igg is 0.21 a year from last sexual encounter, but this year I saw a white pus filled blister on my vagina. I went to an urgent care this morning and just told them I was having a primary hsv 1 outbreak so they would at least give me some acyclovir. I think it is helping as nothing is getting worse so far. I don’t know what to do. Also, if I have spread this all over my body, how will I not pass this on to everyone in sight, or ever have a child, or hold my child's hand? Also, i've tested positive for hsv 1 before, assumed oral, so could I have both hsv 1 and hsv 2 on my face now? I know that is unlikely but there is something very weird going on with me. I think I literally manifested herpes by being so anxious for my western blot to return and then not only was I coming to terms with having hsv 2 genitally but now I really think I've done a number on my whole body. Does any one have hsv 1 and hsv 2 orally or facially? The only thinks that I found that sound close to my symptoms are parovirus b19 or herpes zoster and those are both so related to simplex, that with the white pus blister, and now all this weirdness, I think I've really done it. Anyone experience this or know what is going on?

[JBnATL]

If multiple doctors have examined you and said that you do not have herpes all over your body, then you don't have it all over your body. I know that is a common fear but it never happens.

Please believe your doctors.

JB