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[Cinderellathefake]

I feel hopeless everyday. I almost can not fuction properly. Lately my mind has been all over the place I forget things quickly now I barely sleep or eat. I have no energy for anything or anyone.

I want to be alone, isolated from everyone.

I don't want to explain anything to anyone.

Suffering from depression & anxiety is hell. But now I have a new burden which is H. Somedays I wake up & tell myself "why live?" I honestly feel like just ending all this pain but at the same time I want to be alive so I can experience the greatest things in life.

I guess I'm looking for some guidance, strength, hope & faith.

xoxoxoxo

[SheIsBlue]

Cinderella, many of us here have felt the same way; some still do. We get it, but we also know that herpes is not a condition worth ending your life over. The key to having this virus is accepting that you have it and learning to live with it. Yes, it takes time, but you will get there. You CAN have a sex life again; you CAN find love, but you have to love yourself first. You are the same beautiful person and herpes can never change that. Educate yourself, be kind to yourself so that you can move on from this and enjoy life. You only get one shot at life and there IS a lot to look forward to, even if you cannot see it right now. Take it one day at a time. It will get better if you let it.

[Cinderellathefake]

Thankyou so much for that i really needed to hear that! I have no support & i have no one to talk to about this. But here i feel free & i really trust everyone who gives me advice everyone is so judgement free here & i enjoy it. I know if i was to ever tell anyone i know they'd freak & thing im a whore or something

[RazrSharp23]

Hello, i felt the same way,  just stayd away from everyone friends nd family. Kept it all in, but tht really only makes it worst. I tried to explain to someone but i could tell didnt understand.   But use this site as a support group, make some friends, if possible,  luckily the depression phase seems to be part of going threw the motions of H. Well keep getting thru,  

[Cinderellathefake]

Thats how i feel. Nobody will ever understand. & i dont really have any friends, i am always on this site looking for some hope. It makes me feel great knowing that i belong here. Everyday is a struggle for my happiness but i really try my hardest 

[RazrSharp23]

Awesome,  sooner or later, we won'thave to try,  looking at the ppl whove had it for years nd they are not bothered by it at all,  i know ppl like me nd u  who are younget will be like them sooner rather than later.  Nd  yeah we have our friends but we need sum friends to actuslly understand, really ima use thissite to fill the void in life the diagnosis left,  nd really friends dnt have to be defined by a specific definition,  shit me nd my friends just laugh nd dum shit toghtr lls, dnt be so hard on yourself , about friends,  u be surprissed tht ppl are interested in the same wierd stuff tht u may be into

[princess85]

Cheer up Cinderella! It's gonna be ok:) I'm here

if you need to chat!

Edited September 8, 2015 by princess85

[Cinderellathefake]

Thankyou princess! Im trying to stay positive ive just been having a rough time still adjusting

[girlygirl702]

IM in the same boat as you at least your in a relationship tho the guy I want to be with IM considering letting him go than telling him i feel just as alone as you IM here if you need to talk tho I know we are near eachother 

[Cinderellathefake]

Its really not much of a difference though, i still feel alone & feel like nobody will ever understand not even my bf. I like to deal w/ alotta things on my own & i dont really express my feelings as much. He nags me about it all the time. But i cant help that im so emotionally fucked up    & we def are it wouldnt be a problem to meet one day i use to live in the LES so we have that in common besides H  

[girlygirl702]

Yes I feel like maybe lunch or something lol it'll feel good to actually see someone whose as normal as you ya know 

[Cinderellathefake]

Yeahhh ofcourseee ! Lol