i just want to die

[owlgirl18]

this week is not even halfway over and its been horrible. the only two friends i have told about herpes are no longer my friends because they couldnt 'deal' with my breakdowns. i was annoying for complaining and being sad. i didn't deserve to be upset, they said ' fuck you, don't text me ' and ' i'm done talking to you' 

(they did not say those things bc of my herpes, they have known since i was diagnosed in july)

so now i have herpes, and i don't have my two closest friends

great

kill me now please. 

[SheIsBlue]

Sorry you had to go through that, owlgirl.  I know how you feel.  I lost many best friends along the way and I still don't know why.  We cannot force people to love us or like us.  What we can do is find new friends who are loving and supportive.  I have been let down by so many people that I had to develop a new attitude for myself: no expectations, no disappointment.  It's not the way I would prefer to live, but it saves me a lot of hurt.  In any event, we are here if you need us, anytime.

[Createss Galore]

this week is not even halfway over and its been horrible. the only two friends i have told about herpes are no longer my friends because they couldnt 'deal' with my breakdowns. i was annoying for complaining and being sad. i didn't deserve to be upset, they said ' fuck you, don't text me ' and ' i'm done talking to you' 

(they did not say those things bc of my herpes, they have known since i was diagnosed in july)

so now i have herpes, and i don't have my two closest friends

great

kill me now please. 

Well, it's hard for some people to deal with when they learn that you have HSV, just as it would be hard for them to deal with other serious, life-changing diagnoses. They don't have it, they have it and don't know it, or they know that they have it and are hiding it. Either way, it could have been hard for them to listen to you. They may have been reeling from what you told them, but tried not to show it. Then to try to sympathize and support you too in your difficult adjustment just became too much. That is why there are support groups, where others will not be overburdened with your experience, because they are or have experienced it too.

I think in your effort to get help, you tried to get support in the wrong place, from people who couldn't or didn't want to empathize. But here at Honeycomb, and other H groups and communities, your suffering and adjustment track won't break anyone down, because we have been there and understand.

I'm sorry that you were cursed at and talked or texted to in an un-sympathetic way .

[ST]

Doesn't sound like they were your best friends at all.  Even a friend would say, "I'll give you time" and then let you get over your rough patch, that's if they didn't want to deal with your crying.  If they are gone they were not meant to be.  Just take some time to get yourself together.