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 I am pretty sure I contracted one or the other form of HSV from a girl I was recently with. I didn't notice at the time but looking back on a photo I took of her that day she had visible sores on her mouth. The little white bumps. May be 10 of them.  She gave me oral. A couple of days later it became increasingly painful to urinate. Then a couple of sores appeared on the top of my penis at the base. I went to the doctor and she looked me over and said she thought it was folliculitis.  She tested me for gonorrhea and chlamydia and a UTI and all came back negative. Yet it was still incredibly painful to urinate. Since then, the sores have started to heal and the painful urination has gone. However, today I noticed what I believe is a new cluster of sores cropping up. Little white bumps,  about five or six of them. Over all of the days of wondering if I had type one or type two, I have fallen into an incredibly deep depression. Crying a lot, feeling very worthless, ugly, dirty, and all of the typical things. Can any of you out there offer me any advice,  suggestions, help? 

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Go to a different doctor and get it swabbed asap. The sooner you go, the more likely your doctor will be able to get an accurate diagnosis. Also, be sure the test they run will be able to tell you the type. 

That said, it's possible it ISN'T herpes too, so don't jump to any conclusions before you get tested. But even if it is herpes, you're going to be fine. You can read the Secrets to Our Success forum and find that people with herpes can be happy (or unhappy) just like people without herpes.

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I agree with november, if you have blisters or sores, go get them tested.  They should also swab your urethra, that won't be pleasant but it may help diagnose you.

Obviously your doctor didn't think you have herpes and I bet she sees it every day.  So if I had a medical professional tell me it wasn't herpes I would be relieved.

Even if you do have herpes you will have hsv1 which is great news because hsv1 doesn't like to be genital and you may never have another outbreak again and is almost impossible to spread to someone else from that location (yes I know she could have had hsv2 oral but that is very rare and even more rare for her to give it to you).  

I have had ghsv2 many years and have lived a great life.  I have given the 'talk' about a dozen times and have never been rejected.  So even if you are a Herpster you are not dirty or worthless.  90% of all adults have hsv in one form or another.

Was this girl someone you regret having sex with?  I have been on this website for over 6 years and have met a lot of people who had a sexual encounter and later regretted it and felt so guilty that to punish themselves they believe they had to have acquired the 2nd most common STD.  There was one guy who over a couple of years tested negative in 17 blood tests, 8 swab tests and even had a negative Western blot test, but he still came here thinking he had herpes.

Over they years I have chatted with thousands here and many have told me that getting genital herpes changed their lives for the better.

Good luck!

JB 

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1 hour ago, DevestatedWHerp said:

 I am pretty sure I contracted one or the other form of HSV from a girl I was recently with. I didn't notice at the time but looking back on a photo I took of her that day she had visible sores on her mouth. The little white bumps. May be 10 of them.  She gave me oral. A couple of days later it became increasingly painful to urinate. Then a couple of sores appeared on the top of my penis at the base. I went to the doctor and she looked me over and said she thought it was folliculitis.  She tested me for gonorrhea and chlamydia and a UTI and all came back negative. Yet it was still incredibly painful to urinate. Since then, the sores have started to heal and the painful urination has gone. However, today I noticed what I believe is a new cluster of sores cropping up. Little white bumps,  about five or six of them. Over all of the days of wondering if I had type one or type two, I have fallen into an incredibly deep depression. Crying a lot, feeling very worthless, ugly, dirty, and all of the typical things. Can any of you out there offer me any advice,  suggestions, help? 

Be strong pray to Jesus Christ if you believe seek true authentic knowledge and gain friends via this site and embrace the change or adjustment ask us anything we love ya.

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 Honestly, I have been praying like crazy through all of this. I certainly feel better after your responses guys.  Especially that it's probably not herpes2. I'm still scared to death though.. 

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17 hours ago, JBnATL said:

I agree with november, if you have blisters or sores, go get them tested.  They should also swab your urethra, that won't be pleasant but it may help diagnose you.

Obviously your doctor didn't think you have herpes and I bet she sees it every day.  So if I had a medical professional tell me it wasn't herpes I would be relieved.

Even if you do have herpes you will have hsv1 which is great news because hsv1 doesn't like to be genital and you may never have another outbreak again and is almost impossible to spread to someone else from that location (yes I know she could have had hsv2 oral but that is very rare and even more rare for her to give it to you).  

I have had ghsv2 many years and have lived a great life.  I have given the 'talk' about a dozen times and have never been rejected.  So even if you are a Herpster you are not dirty or worthless.  90% of all adults have hsv in one form or another.

Was this girl someone you regret having sex with?  I have been on this website for over 6 years and have met a lot of people who had a sexual encounter and later regretted it and felt so guilty that to punish themselves they believe they had to have acquired the 2nd most common STD.  There was one guy who over a couple of years tested negative in 17 blood tests, 8 swab tests and even had a negative Western blot test, but he still came here thinking he had herpes.

Over they years I have chatted with thousands here and many have told me that getting genital herpes changed their lives for the better.

Good luck!

JB 

Yes, I absolutely hate myself for being with her.

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guys... i'm losing this battle i think...  I just  found out that I'm laid off one of my jobs. All that on top of this garbage I inflicted on myself...  I'm losing....  not sure how much more stress I can handle. It seems like whenever I handle one stressful thing, or all stressful things, this stupid bug remains on my privates to remind me that everything is, in fact, not ok.......   help

 

I find myself disgusting when I look in the mirror too.    Probably because of the disgusting manner in which I got this thing.

 

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First, even if this is herpes, there is no need to be thinking like this. Disgusting manner? There is nothing disgusting in our sexuality and its expression. The transmission of herpes occurs regardless of whether the sexual contact is casual or within a committed relationship. The 25% of world's population with genital herpes are not disgusting and they can look proudly in the mirror. A little sore now and again from an innocuous virus is not reason to feel bad about ourselves.

And this all predicates that you actually have genital herpes which is yet to be established.  Focus on diagnosis of what you have.

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Sorry to hear about the job loss.  I have been through that and it is no fun.  However you will find another job and probably a better job.  When one door closes another opens, so look forward to new opportunities.

Don't beat yourself up about how you go this.  You are human and humans make mistakes.  Please believe that if you did get this virus from this girl your doctor probably would have told you.  Doctors see this everyday.  As I mentioned before, I have seen dozens of people come to this website POSITIVE they had herpes because they felt guilty about a sexual encounter they had but later learned they did not get this virus.  Please realize your guilt is probably fueling your feelings of disgust.  The past is over.  You can't change it so learn from this experience and make your life better as a result of it.

You WILL be ok, please believe that.

JB

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 I sure hope I didn't offend anyone. If I did I apologize. But sometimes when I am in the throes of depression and devastation I don't choose my words very wisely. Thanks for the support guys. All I really need is positive encouragement. 

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I hope you find we are supportive. Please do not beat yourself up, nor beat up the person who may have given you herpes. We are all better than that!

I even disagree with the other posters who suggest you made a mistake!?! Receiving a blowjob in a moment of excitement and passion is not a mistake.

I fully agree though that you will be OK regardless. You also may not have genital herpes at all.

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6 hours ago, DevestatedWHerp said:

 I sure hope I didn't offend anyone. If I did I apologize. But sometimes when I am in the throes of depression and devastation I don't choose my words very wisely. Thanks for the support guys. All I really need is positive encouragement. 

We are Positive we are here for you. Great place to express all your emotions as we truly understand what you are going through. You will find the support you need here from very knowledgeable people who care about what is happening to you. 

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11 hours ago, DevestatedWHerp said:

 I sure hope I didn't offend anyone. If I did I apologize. But sometimes when I am in the throes of depression and devastation I don't choose my words very wisely. Thanks for the support guys. All I really need is positive encouragement. 

Hey sweety, when we are hurt or injured we ALL have lashed out but here you never EVER need say your sorry! We are here for Support, kindness and to help educate you for whatever reasons you need! We are your new family community forum so if we can help simply ask and someone will be here. Hugs Aces xo 

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Blisters kept spreading so I went back to the clinic. She agrees now that it is herpes...   Plus she saw my state of mind and prescribed me an antiviral as well as Xanax and an antidepressant. This has certainly taken its toll. 

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4 hours ago, DevestatedWHerp said:

 Now I just have to figure out why every time I login I have to reset my password? Any suggestions? 

Message the Administration her name Shenda In purple @HC-SUPPORT-Team ,  http://honeycomb.click/profile/2-hc-support-team/?wr=eyJhcHAiOiJmb3J1bXMiLCJtb2R1bGUiOiJmb3J1bXMtY29tbWVudCIsImlkXzEiOjY1Mzk0LCJpZF8yIjozNzU4NjR9 this is her link, send her a message so she can tweak your log in. 

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4 hours ago, DevestatedWHerp said:

Blisters kept spreading so I went back to the clinic. She agrees now that it is herpes...   Plus she saw my state of mind and prescribed me an antiviral as well as Xanax and an antidepressant. This has certainly taken its toll. 

I took all those plus antibiotics, antifungal too! I waited too long to seek medical help simply because I was naive, newly married, never knew married ppl got such things :( ! It was eye opening and in hindsight, the blessing in disguise I needed for my life. I was so grateful to God that that's all he passed to me ;) could have been so much worst.

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