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A letter to the man who has changed my life forever

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Snoopirac

You think that giving someone an incurable virus is not a big deal, and that hurts me more than anything.   It is a problem because my life is now changed forever because of you.  Every day is a struggle.  I cannot believe I have to take antidepressants and anti-anxiety medications just to function on a daily basis.  Otherwise, I sleep, because I don't want to think about the situation you put me in.  I think about you every day, I see you in my dreams, you haunt me.  I don’t want to see your face anymore, but I know it will take forgiveness for me to forget you.  But I cannot find it in my heart to do that just yet.  Thankfully the medications help; before taking them I wanted to die, I couldn't take the shame, the embarrassment, the hurt.  I feel broken inside; I want my old life back. I wish I could turn back time before I met you, I regret the day that I met you.  How could you not be more compassionate, how could you think that what you did is ok?  Why would you not be there for me?  Instead, you told me that “It’s better to have genital herpes than cold sores," “you’re pretty so you’ll meet someone else.” You referred to it as a “gift.”  Well sorry if I don’t see it as a gift.  I will live with what you said for a very long time.  Notice, I didn’t say forever because I refuse to let it be forever.  I pray with the help of God that I will forgive, forget and move on very soon.  You are a jerk, and all I have left to say is I believe in Karma, you will get what you deserve.  Hopefully, for your sake, it will be an empathetic heart.  

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bitsnpieces

I can relate to your thoughts. I am still trying to figure out how to talk to my ex that gave me this disease. You were treated badly and have every right to be hurt, but I REALLY appreciate that you have already decided not to let that consume you. It will take time, but with the positive attitude you already have about your own emotional healing, you'll get there.  (I am going to have to tell myself all this stuff too!) Don't let the mistreatment you suffered define you! 

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Felix12

My ex gave this to me. She had it, knew she had it, and did not disclose. She admitted it after I got diganosed, but since we broke up she has been in denial that she has it and has undoubtedly given it to others since. She's a bad person..no, she's a pathetic person. And I forgive her. Not because she deserves it, but because she is not going to be in my future. Good riddance and good luck. Is my hsv a reminder of her? It can be, if I so choose. Or it can represent a new chapter without her.

You will heal and be stronger from this experience, even though it may be tough right now. Hang in there. It does get easier.

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Peacepleez

Is it more the feeling of having an incurable virus or symptoms of the virus that is the problem?  I would be fine having the virus as long as I felt even mildly like my old self.

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Scared12345

My ex pretended he did not have it. I got it 9 days after intercourse with him. Jerk...broke up with me a month later 

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