Please Help???!

[1hopnot]

Im new to this. I am in my early 20's. This whole week Ive been dealing with depression wondering what my results are going to be.... My culture came out negative. I am waiting for the herpes select blood test. Im really scared because Im in a new relationship. About 3 days after my boyfriend and I had sex, I was having a hard time after urination and it hurt to wipe. So I looked in the mirror and noticed my labia was really swollen and I had a yellow lesion. Are herpes yellow? My doctor says he still thinks its herpes. Oh and also I have a case of yeast infections so I am being treated for that, he also said my PH level is not balanced and gave me something for that as well. Hopefully I get the blood test result tomorrow. Reading up on it, I get a better understanding, its just the fact that I may have infected someone I cared about or maybe he infected me but people dont understand. He got really mad at me because I told him my result was negative and he swore hes been tested. Sometimes I wonder if hes lying or if hes scared too but wont admit it. Because people are quick to admit theyve been tested for everything. I always wonder if I had it before and didnt know it.

I have a few questions, hopefully someone can help.

1) Are herpes lesions Yellow?

2) I read about itching...Do you itch after your outbreaks and if so where exactly do you itch? (Im experiencing itching but its not anywhere near my labia, lips or anythign like that its as if I shaved and) hair is growing back)

3) Does anyone have any photos? (Everywhere I look, the cases are so extreme)

[fonzy96]

Yellow ?

First I am sorry to hear you say all of this. It's not an easy virus to deal with at first. If you do have it, don't beat yourself up too much. You can't change the past.

Regarding yellow, All I can say is I have HP around my lips and chin and when I have an outbreak on my chin, it is definitely yellow.

But don't panic and wait for the blood tests.

Fonzy...

[MovingBackwards]

There will always be questions about who had it, and who infected who. I was sure, so sure that my girlfriend who cheated on me had it first, because we showed symptoms after she cheated and we were still together. However, I thought and wondered about dormant phases and many other things. The only thing that accomplished increasing my stress levels and decreasing my time on important things. Back to my ex girlfriend, she is already talking to another guy and becoming close to him, and moved on.

My point in this is that worrying is only normal, and with time comes acceptance. Wait on your tests, and go from there.

Whether the test comes out negative or positive, we are still here. Don't hesitate to post either result.

Feel Better, 1hopnot.

[alwall0828]

Welcome,

In the beginning when my lesions would heal they would turn a yellowish color, and I have seen extreme cold sore photos that they turn yellow also.

I have itching/ tingling all around down there, sometimes I get a pain in my upper thigh also. Sometimes when I shave down there it tingles right where I shave. You sound like a exact case like I have.

Sorry no photos here. But sounds like you have it. Trust me, calm down, take a breather. Life isn't over. The inital shock and OB is the worst. You will learn tricks to ease the pain, itch and severity.

PM me is you like.

[1hopnot]

Results

So the blood work came back positive. I have the antibodies for it. So now what? Im guessing I had it in the past. Now what? What do I tell my new boyfriend. Obviously my first outbreak was with him. Otherwise I probably wouldnt have known. Hes 12 years older than me too.

[alwall0828]

Someone please correct me if I am wrong, but you stated your swabs/ culture were negative, but your blood work came back positive and you have antibodies. Now I may be wrong but in that case unless you've been with your boyfriend for a while this means you already had it.

Also my GHSV causes me to have some yeast and seem like a yeast infection. I have to be careful using any yeast products because it make me horribly red and swollen.

Also standard STD testing does NOT test for herpes. So he may have been tested and been free of everything else but in most places you have to almost DEMAND a herpes blood test to receive one.

Regardless it comes down to regardless if you had it before him or he gave it to you. He one needs to have a blood test done. This will show if he has had it for a while or not at all. Also if this guy wants to be with you for the long run there will be no problem. I just suggest no finger pointing or you might as well tell your relationship goodbye.

Work here on out healing yourself. Not stressing for it will get worse, and to learn your symptoms. This will better prepare you for what is coming and can increase your chances of not passing anything on. This isn't the end. this is the first day of the rest of your life.

[MovingBackwards]

I am sorry that the test is positive. I wish it had not been. However, alwall is right: blaming is a downward spiral, whether someone else or yourself.

You asked "Now What?" Accepting is the next step. I know it is not easy. I saw a sign today at my new residence that said "no persons with infectious or communicable diseases allowed in the pool." Even though I know that Herpes is only transmitted through touch, it still jarred my thoughts, mood, and previous outlooks on things because I am communicable. I am still learning to accept this problem or it would not have jarred me. It takes time, and I am giving myself that. Please understand that you must give yourself time as well.

Ask anything, and seek support whenever you need it. Like I said before, we are still here for you. Think things through and find your truth.

Best Regards

[Claudia]

It is my belief also that we are triggered by things, people, and situations when there is something inside us that is afraid and in denial.

I saw a sign today at my new residence that said "no persons with infectious or communicable diseases allowed in the pool." Even though I know that Herpes is only transmitted through touch, it still jarred my thoughts, mood, and previous outlooks on things because I am communicable.

Wow. Interesting sign.

I would expect herpes would not be included since skin-to-skin is its method of transfer, but, just for fun, I consider this:

People with oral herpes can infect someone else with herpes. Most people do not keep their mouths above water the entire time they are in a pool. Approximately 70% of the population has an oral herpes infection. Therefore, if herpes counted as a communicable disease as per that sign, at least 70% of the population would be excluded from using the pool, very likely including the person who created the sign.

[MovingBackwards]

Hahaha, I did not think of it that way. But you are right, Claudia. I am still just dealing with the way I think about it. I have to read my own words sometimes.

[Lost&Found]

Hey

Hey Girl

Take a deep breath, first of all...I believe that is the very first step I needed to take. Things will get better...slowly. This is not something easy to deal with, your whole life and any future plans you had probably seem unrealistic now...realize that they don't need to be. In this case, all of us are victims (some more than others, but still). As Alwall mentioned before, if your cultures were -, but your blood results were +, it more than likely is an old infection. As far as the itching, in my case, I get more surface area itching than I get lesions and it is not "I gotta scratch with both hands and a foot" kind of itching either. Yeast infection itching has been worse for me. I also get lower back pain and right knee pain, again nothing disabling just annoying. This site has excellent info on diet and supplementation, whether Western or alternative/herbal. Read up on it. Oh yeah, it is true about standardized STD tests...they do not include a Herpes blood test. It is too expensive because it is a DNA test unlike all the others. If your guy is too *&$?*! to love and understand you...he probably is not the right one for you. Stay strong.