First of all, wow. What a wonderful community of people here on honeycomb and across the web. I experienced my first outbreak of HSV 1- genital last week and I am so grateful of all the helpful tips and tricks and stories I have read. It truly helped me get through what has been the most painful week of my life: physically and emotionally.
I got married in May 2018 to the man of my dreams after 4 very happy years of growth and love together. Literally days after we returned from our honeymoon I thought I had some severe chaffing from walking around and sweating. I was so tired, my vagina was inflamed, and soon after days of ignoring the issue/assuming it would go away, I had ulcers form all over my genital area. And I mean ALL over!
Peeing felt like passing razor blades, I couldn’t clean myself properly, I was afraid to eat or drink, I could barely move and most of all the pain was unbelievable. Before I went to the Gynocologist and got visual diagnosis of herpes I thought it was anything, but that. I have been in a steady relationship for 4 years and I was certain there was no way this virus would sit dormant in me for that long. However, the Doctor took a look and told me it looked a lot like herpes.
Through my sobbing and shock, I could barely pull myself together. I actually spoke to an on site therapist for about an hour about my fears of my new husband finding me disgusting and viewing me as a burden he was stuck with. I was terrified to tell him.
However, when I shared the news I was met with unconditional love, understanding and concern. This negative situation actually brought us closer as newly weds. He has been a great support system for me.
Now, the outbreak has cleared up, but I am experiecing some nerve and “phantom pains” down there. There’s a numbing pain in my butt and left leg that is incredibly irritating. Has anyone else experienced this?
On another note, I am curious to hear stories of over coming the lack of sexiness and lack of libido after finding out you have herpes? How do you get back the confidence and urge to have sex again?
Thanks for your time!
Any chronic cold sore sufferers? I need some advice on how you have dealt with this emotionally and anything that has helped treat or prevent outbreaks?
Got the call this morning that I’m hsv1 and honestly I’m so sad about this I told myself I wasn’t gonna cry when I got my results but I can’t help it. Just knowing I got this and there is no cure I’m just so hurt about it I feel like my life is over. I feel so dirty and disgusted with myself. I don’t know what to do.
I have exceeded the attachment capacity for posting, so wasn't able to attach the results in this post. Here is the link to the report instead:
1) Initial IgG (August 16; 13 days post unprotected exposure with someone that I found out was asymptomatically HSV-2 positive and 2-3 weeks later she had her primary outbreak):
*HSV-2 = 2.00
*HSV-1 = they never tested me for it
Took Valacyclovir for 10 days (did not help with any symptoms) (August 17-26, 2017)
2) Retested IgG (November, 2017; 4 months post exposure)
*HSV-2 = negative (no reference range or numerical value given)
*HSV-1 = negative (no reference range or numerical value given)
3) Western Blot (blood drawn on March 16, 2018 (7.5 months post exposure; copy of results retrieved from physician's office on April 10, 2018)
*HSV-2 = negative
*HSV-1 = indeterminate
*The reasons for the indeterminate value in Western Blot are given in the report; so either I'm still seroconverting or I have an autoimmune response to something which distorted the test results.
How many people take just one 800 mg acyclovir and have it stop an outbreak immediately?