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Hi to everyone that can read my message at this moment. I Tested for genital Herpes 2 years ago given to me by someone I thought I was in love with turns out to give me this for a life time.december last year when everyone was happy I tried to take my own life.i feel like a walking  virus off cause I am a walking  virus .the itching and the pain and the worst part the Outbreak. I can’t have a family of my own how do I tell a lady I have herpes and no girl will be my wife .that is the worst part.if only I could be happy again or don’t think of me of haveing hsv in a minute.please can someone tell me if I am anyway better than some one living with hiv.a cry for help oh lord send me someone to love me with my condition my wish right now is to get married and start making babies before I die.cause I know I shall take my life someday .i can’t stay that long I am just 30 years old and got the infection two years ago .if a girl says no to you then be sure everyone around will knows you have herpes .i lost confidence in me self I don’t see myself as bright as I used to be .I THINK I HAVE FAILD  soon the brain gets damage and even gets blinds .please. Lord let there be a cure in my time .i forgot to say my first white girl give me this I was lost and thought I was lucky    I did oral on her which infected me with hsv 1 and also had sex with no condom  haveing now hsv 2.she knew she had it but never told me .  I was just an innocent black guy who have never thought about this type of std .and as beautiful as she was can be infected now she would be my first and last white girl on earth .am sorry people am not been racial but understand I am in pain .

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Nothing more to do rather than the normal drugs life is not pleasant for me anymore.i wish I never meant that bitch 

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2 hours ago, Lifelikehellnow said:

Nothing more to do rather than the normal drugs life is not pleasant for me anymore.i wish I never meant that bitch 

You will have all those things you dream of.  There are plenty of young ladies who have HSV that want to get married and have babies!!  Please rethink your feelings. First-There will be a cure in your lifetime. Second-There are dating websites for persons with HSV. Third- If you live in the USA there’s a large group that meets every year to socialize. I think they are out of Texas or New Mexico. 

Join a local support group. I also suggest therapy.  This is not the end. This is just a change...Life has many of those!!! This just might be the change you need to meet that special person. I’ve heard plenty of people have met on here and gotten married and are happily married. 

Hope this helps. You are better than HSV and we need you here with us, contributing and helping. We do not need a voiceless statistic. 

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7 minutes ago, crisper said:

You will have all those things you dream of.  There are plenty of young ladies who have HSV that want to get married and have babies!!  Please rethink your feelings. First-There will be a cure in your lifetime. Second-There are dating websites for persons with HSV. Third- If you live in the USA there’s a large group that meets every year to socialize. I think they are out of Texas or New Mexico. 

Join a local support group. I also suggest therapy.  This is not the end. This is just a change...Life has many of those!!! This just might be the change you need to meet that special person. I’ve heard plenty of people have met on here and gotten married and are happily married. 

Hope this helps. You are better than HSV and we need you here with us, contributing and helping. We do not need a voiceless statistic. 

What you said about there being a cure in our lifetimes makes me so hopeful thank you for your positive words even if it keeps someone another year from taking their lives

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On 2/26/2018 at 6:09 PM, Lifelikehellnow said:

Hi to everyone that can read my message at this moment. I Tested for genital Herpes 2 years ago given to me by someone I thought I was in love with turns out to give me this for a life time.december last year when everyone was happy I tried to take my own life.i feel like a walking  virus off cause I am a walking  virus .the itching and the pain and the worst part the Outbreak. I can’t have a family of my own how do I tell a lady I have herpes and no girl will be my wife .that is the worst part.if only I could be happy again or don’t think of me of haveing hsv in a minute.please can someone tell me if I am anyway better than some one living with hiv.a cry for help oh lord send me someone to love me with my condition my wish right now is to get married and start making babies before I die.cause I know I shall take my life someday .i can’t stay that long I am just 30 years old and got the infection two years ago .if a girl says no to you then be sure everyone around will knows you have herpes .i lost confidence in me self I don’t see myself as bright as I used to be .I THINK I HAVE FAILD  soon the brain gets damage and even gets blinds .please. Lord let there be a cure in my time .i forgot to say my first white girl give me this I was lost and thought I was lucky    I did oral on her which infected me with hsv 1 and also had sex with no condom  haveing now hsv 2.she knew she had it but never told me .  I was just an innocent black guy who have never thought about this type of std .and as beautiful as she was can be infected now she would be my first and last white girl on earth .am sorry people am not been racial but understand I am in pain .

I feel like a walking virus too.  It is like hell. I’m scared to leave my house most of the time.

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10 hours ago, brookeb300 said:

I feel like a walking virus too.  It is like hell. I’m scared to leave my house most of the time.

I feel it when i have ob i also dont want to go somewhere and use someone’s toilet even. It is hard mentally really. But when there is no outbreak i feel better. Sex is something also problem im afraid whenever i have sex i will have ob. Why these obs cant be on arm or leg why there :))) 

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Does anyone know if smoking weed , cause outbreak .have stop so many things but weed at atlest makes me little happy or put me to sleep .anyone here from Italy I need a friend . I can talk with physical.

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On 3/18/2018 at 4:29 PM, Lifelikehellnow said:

Does anyone know if smoking weed , cause outbreak .have stop so many things but weed at atlest makes me little happy or put me to sleep .anyone here from Italy I need a friend . I can talk with physical.

Cannabinoids progress the infection.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2903762/#!po=28.9474

 

Its sad i know.

Cant even consume edibles. WELP.

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The below is not mine- reposting from elsewhere. Use it, don't use it....

The thread was called Curing Yourself of Herpes

You may have noticed that Part 1 and Part 2 of my Stigma polls were in fact the same question worded differently and yet the results have been quite opposite. It seems that most people feel that the stigma against herpes is in the general public and yet when the concept of social stigma is defined further, it seems most people identify the stigma as something they themselves carry. The results of these polls seems to leave little margin for statistical error.

So, how can this be interpreted? Let me digress.

I caught herpes 5 years ago to the day, and since then have made myself very knowledgeable about the subject, right down to cytological levels. I have spoken to many people at length on the subject and have stood back to study how people act and react. I looked at myself and how I reacted to herpes and how step-by-step I realised certain patterns of emotion emerging that I could identify with.

I would also argue that the oft overlooked and major crippling symptom of herpes is the psychological impact, and really that is the crux of it. And I argue that this symptom is what hurts anyone. More than any blister. And this symptom CAN be cured and life will be better for it.

I see people going through these phases and they are very similar to the Bereavement Process.

DENIAL – That can't be a herpes blister. I have always been very careful. Not me!

DISGUST – You have just been diagnosed with herpes. You know you have it. How could you have been so foolish? Didn't you know? Maybe you deserve it from karma, after all there was that time when.

DESPAIR – Nobody will love me now. I am unclean, the leper of modern society. I must ring my bell and cry 'Unclean! Unclean!' in the streets of dating and love.

FEAR – I'll definitely give it to someone and anybody I love or sleep with. I'd hate myself if they got it from me. I'm alone. I am vulnerable. I am afraid. I am different.

GUILT – I must have deserved this from karma, I'm so sorry World for bringing this disease to you. My lovers beware that they share my suffering. If I had been good and pure and clean I wouldn't be like this...I am so sorry. I have learned my lesson! Honest!

ANGER – Why me! I don't deserve this shit!Bloody Muggles too! They all hate me because I have herpes! They don't they know the truth about it! They won't accept me! Society is bad because of how They treat me. I said sorry goddamit! They stigmatise me because of herpes. (They? What They? Name some people. Try that now. Name them. Not as many as you think?)

DEPRESSION – I seem to be getting nowhere with this. Got to take this pills all my life. I can't find a date or can't tell my date about herpes. I'm so loneley.

OPENING – I started telling my mates, which was easy enough. Now, I'm not that bothered talking about herpes, something that was hard before. Told a few dates, most of them stayed. Well, the ones that were properly interested. One or two teasers used it as an excuse and fucked off but who cares

ACCEPTANCE - Herpes doesn't define me. I am who I am, a perfectly normal and healthy human being. I tell dates, they don't mind and if they do I trash them. I couldn't be with anyone that closed minded. If they can't accept something purile like herpes, where will it stop!

ENLIGHTENMENT – The stigma that I thought the Muggles had was in fact my own. I took my guilt and anger and projected it onto society. When I went looking for it, there it was. Right in front of me where I put it. My immune system kills herpes every time I get an OB. I can't loose the infection but really am I suffering from herpes? Occasionally inconvenienced, but suffering?

So, I think perhaps the answers to my polls reflect this. That the stigma of herpes is our own negativity, (and particularly the guilt we feel to ourselves) that we project.

So how does this all relate to a 'cure'. Look at a definition. “To restore to health”. Most people are perfectly healthy with herpes, and get an occasional OB. “To relieve or rid of something detrimental such as an illness or bad habit”. I suggest that once people forgive themselves and rid themselves of their guilt they will rid themselves of an important symptom of herpes as an illness, namely their own projected stigma. Their own “ mark of disgrace or infamy; a stain or reproach, as on … reputation”. It is also a bad habit people get into! To cure herpes, we need to look at what we are letting it do to our hearts and minds and cure that. Then we won't be a herpes sufferers, we will be somebody that is occasionally inconvenienced.

Until we overcome this wall, herpes will forever affect us and cause us the greatest suffering that this virus can cause, i.e. The self induced psychological trauma.

Sadly, it's not easy to see this wall. It will be easy to miss it and many can't see it or are so trapped they won't allow themselves to see it. Unfortunately (and with all respect to management here) H-ype is also a self-fulfilling prophesy. Those of us who care, are sensitive or class ourselves as sufferers are to be met here. After all, if herpes was such the big deal in society, we'd have thousands online all the time. You are likely to meet very like-minded people that have also got to climb this wall completely, or come on day visits to the other-side of their own walls.

So, what is my remedy for a cure? What would I advise?

Firstly, get used to telling people. This I would say is a golden rule. You will then see how little it matters to your friends/family/colleagues. Most of them will know someone they already love (parent, friend, sibling former partner etc) that gets some kind of cold-sore. You will find liberation in that. You will find acceptance in people very quickly, and you can't project your own guilt or fear.

People you love will be no different and you will find telling potential partners much easier if you are cool about the topic yourself. By giving the Talk, the recipient will automatically wonder if it something they should worry about. If you are loaded with guilt and fear, then you will be emitting hundreds of clues in your body language; tone of voice; eye contact; gestures etc. People pick up on these subliminal signals very well, and if you seem afraid then so will they be.

Secondly, see herpes as the tool and not yourself. A lot of you reading this may have stories of how some bastard sleeping around gave it to you and they never loved you and cheated etc. Well, unless they already have herpes, you have a great acid-test for a person. If they care for you, it really won't matter. If they are not that serious or just playing the field, then it will. So herpes helps you sift the wheat from the chaff in your love life. I know one girl that gets rid of over randy admirers in clubs by pulling the herpes card, now that takes some front!

Above all, do what you can to rid yourself of guilt and fear. Recognise each stage and find your path through it, without getting trapped. There is no blame and nothing to fear. It may be a difficult path to get there and only you can walk it but it is worth the walk. You will emerge as a better person in general for it and you will feel great about it, I promise.

Don't be a herpes “sufferer” any longer.

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I've had herpes a little longer than those posting here- 9 years. I felt the same as you a lot of the time and wish I had come across forums like this then, but life goes on and there are way worse things than herpes that you may encounter. What if you had HIV AIDs instead, for example? Some fine people I know do. They're not stupid, not defeated.

Learn and grow- wither, stagnate and die. Life is full of choices. Choose the positive- please! There is so much of the negative about. Don't feed it.

Cannabis, coffee, cigarettes, chocolate, wine and many other things people enjoy (or make themselves feel better with) can exacerbate herpes. Moderation... except with peanuts.. major trigger

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