I’m not sure what this is

[Bretenvelop 0]

I took a picture on both sides. I have a very very mild burning sansation. I have never been checked before because I have never thought about ever getting any stds in my life. I’m so devastated and scared... and because I’m a guy, I don’t have anybody to turn to because I feel like my friends will try to avoid me. I didn’t talk to my family about this especially because I felt like I was letting them down. I’m the only child and my parents work so hard to support me and I love my parents very much and that’s why I’m more depressed. I was first exposed 4 years ago and received unprotected oral sex 4 times throughout in my entire life. I have never had any outbreaks before so I would consider myself asymptomatic but just a day ago, I encountered the seriousness of this illness and the whole entire day I didn’t eat anything and I was just in my bed all day. I kept waking up because I felt light-headed and out of breath. I’m unemployed and have no insurance so I don’t have any money to go see a doctor. I’m so scared and devastated. I have been crying all day because I didn’t know who to turn to and didn’t know what to do.

[Lemony 1]

You have a hole in the head of your penis. I don't think that is herpes.