By
CurlySwirl
Hi everyone. I am still waiting on bloodwork, but the doc immediately told her nurse "this is definitely herpes" during my extremely painful examination. I do not yet know which type, but it is inside of my labia and inside my buttcrack below my anus. I went in because I thought I had a few veginal tears and an ingrown hair after a bit of rough sex.
The man I believe to have contacted it but from has said he hasn't ever had any sores or reason to believe he has HSV, but my symptoms began 7 days after our first (of 4 total) nights of sex. He had since gone to the doctor who is skeptical of him having the virus and is also waiting on bloodwork results. I have only begun to consider the emotional toll this diagnosis will take on my life (and his-of course), however, this is not my primary concern right now. I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN and am utterly terrified.
I have begun a 7 day regimen of Valacyclovir. Should I ask for an extension? The doc told me to take Valtrex 1 GM once/day for 10 days, but was given Valacyclovir 1GM every 8 hours for 7 days.
Furthermore, this outbreak is INCREDIBLY painful. I have had to slather coconut oil on my genitals to allow the lessons to slide past each other, because the pain was/is so great that I could not move. I have called out of work all week for to pain and can feel the lessons pressing on each other or skin when I walk.
I was unable to each or sleep much at all from the Saturday until Wednesday due to the pain in my genitals and hugely swollen tonsils filled with Exodus worse than any picture I could find on Google. Since taking the Z-pak and 5 huge horse pills of Valacyclovir, the swelling of my tonsils has decreased enough to eat 2 a small meal and the Exodus is slowly diminishing. But... Back to my genitals.
This morning, I woke up from a 2 hour nap having to urinate urgently. I ran to the toilet and leaned as far forward as I could so the urine would touch and burn as little as possible. I had been very gentle but thourough with wiping previously, but this time... The moment the toilet paper touched the urine between my labia, I felt the worst stab of pain of my life. As I let out a muffled scream and it slowly became tolerable, I looked at the toilet paper and found yello pus. I hadn't even know the blisters formed yet and I popped a cluster... In the heat of the moment, I folded the toilet paper and did the other side of my labia-same feeling. I repeated the process in sections almost down to my perineum before I was afraid I would pass out from the pain. I was careful to get the pus on the toilet paper and not spread it around, then immediately hopped in the shower to rinse my body. So now I have another question- did I screw myself over?
I did most of the blisters I immediately felt without pressing to hard. Just now, 12 hours later, I just took an unscented baby wipe to clear the nasty green discharge slowly. I felt the same pain and again as pus came on to the moist wipe. I carefully did the same thing again and this time folded it up and stuck it between my cheeks, where I felt more pain as some pus leaked from my anal lessons. Again, is this a terrible thing to do?
Even more, I was snipped by the nail tech a few weeks ago on my cuticle of my left-middle finger, and it became swollen with a dark red spot and filled with pus around Monday- 2 days before I found out I had herpes. This is when I would slather my hands in coconut oil for my vagina (then immediately wash them). I had been picking at it. Turns out, it is termed "herpetic Whitlow". Well, as I showered this morning after my painful toilet paper-pus encounter #1, my skin soaked up all the water and my fingers became pruny. I barely picked at it when the entire blood clot came out. I have now covered it in coconut oil and a bandaid, but it left a dry crater in my finger below my nail.
I do not understand how I am supposed to keep the lesions dry if that means they burst from skin shearing and keep my hygeine if I cannot touch my vaj with toilet paper. I have a fatty vagina and large buttocks, so every movement produces extreme amounts of pain from the force of my weight. I cannot sit or lay without shifting a billion times and producing pain.
It has been exactly one week since I have left the house with exception of my doctor's appointments. I have experienced no pain ever in my life as bad as this outbreal, even while my body entered septic shock during a terrible kidney infection I had before Christmas. I could care less about stigma or my romantic future right now because of the immense pain. I should have a delivery of lysine and oregano oil by tomorrow to treat future outbreaks, but this is a pain I don't know if I can ever deal with again.
I am also worried that I've only pooped once in this week early on. I am TERRIFIED of having to get a deuce out with these sores and the pain of wiping and cleaning afterward.
I know this is a lot, but nothing else I've found online describes a case as bad and painful as mine. Please help in any way you can think of.
Thank you all for reading,
J