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I’ve just signed up here as I have NOONE in the real world to talk to. I feel so disgusting. My child’s father has given me herpes and I don’t know what to do with myself. I feel so icolated. I’ve no friends my only friend was my partner and now we don’t work anymore. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. Or how I’m supposed to cope. I’m lonely. Really lonely  and I’m so so so fed up I feel damaged. I don’t know if this is an emotional outburst or what. I just need someone to talk to 

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WilsoInAus

Hey there a great community here to help you.

This is a lot more common than you’d have ever thought.

But what herpes do you have and what location.

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Heydoll

Hey @WilsoInAus I have HSV2. Gentail. I feel so dirty. I was itchy after sex and noticed a small cut. Went to the clinic and came back positive for HSV2. I don’t think I would mind so much if I had caught this sleeping around but I have caught this from my child’s father and now I feel as though I could never be intimate with anyone again as I feel so dirty and I know people will look down on me for this 

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Scout0211

Hey....What you're feeling is normal. I was just recently diagnosed; you feel dirty, depressed and isolated, I understand. Is there just one person you can disclose this to? Just one person can help tremendously. I have two friends I can talk to about this, and my boyfriend (who gave this to me, not his fault, was not aware), and even having them, you still feel overwhelmed with shame and sadness. I am here for you if you need to talk. It is a very difficult thing to go through. Try to be kind to yourself, do whatever you need to do to make yourself feel calm for short periods of time (funny movie, relaxing bath, music, walks...). I feel like once some time has passed, I will be coping with this disease a lot better, and I feel it will be the same for you as well. Time can't heal us physically, but it can help us emotionally. Take care hun, you are not alone :blush:

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