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Got the call this morning that I’m hsv1 and honestly I’m so sad about this I told myself I wasn’t gonna cry when I got my results but I can’t help it. Just knowing I got this and there is no cure I’m just so hurt about it I feel like my life is over. I feel so dirty and disgusted with myself. I don’t know what to do. 

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Scooby2112

Do you know if it's oral or genital?   Over 60% of the population has HSV1.  Most are oral infections but a few are genital.  

Only way to know is having an active sore swabbed.  

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Scooby2112

Also since 60% or more of the people have hsv1 you are in the majority.  Not something that should make you feel dirty.  Did you get chicken pox? Did you fee dirty then?   It's just another virus.  

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Curious1998

I have genital hsv 1. And I was a baby when I had the chicken pox but guess me knowing how this situation was brought on to me has me feeling a certain way specially since I just been  diagnosed my emotions are everywhere you could relate to that huh? 

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Scooby2112

Yes everyone can relate.  The stigma around the virus is what is weighing on you.  It's an artifact of our puritan past.  Herpes isn't as big of a deal in some countries.  

Here we are taught sex is dirty and getting an Std means you are promiscuous.  When in reality it's just something that happens.  We all fave many viruses th hat are transmitted back and forth.  Some are permanent like Epstein Barr and cytomegalovirus which are both other forms of herpes.  Many people have these but since they rarely shows symptoms people don't know and don't care.  Herpes however is known how it's transmitted and therefore that dirty aspect gets attached.  

If you got it shaking hands people wouldn't care one bit.  

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Applemaze18

I know it sucks now but it will be okay. I was diagnosed back in January and it was tough at first but then I came here found support and decided not to let this ruin my life. Sometimes I get a little sad that it ended my relationship but I look at it overall this is for the best and now I’m super selective with who I give my time as I don’t want to have to disclose to everyone that I have herpes. I also found out my best friend has oral herpes (cold sores) guess what she’s more contagious (so they say)  then I am and she still is living her best life.

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