Newly diagnosed

[Beachlovr88]

I was recently given the gift of HSV-2. To say I'm upset would be a HUGE understatement. I have no idea where I got it, and my first obvious and visible outbreak occurred after hitting the 2 year mark with my boyfriend. I'm mostly upset about that, and the lack of information provided by my physician, (who is highly rated). It all started when I got incredibly ill. I literally had an upper respiratory infection. Flem cough, sore throat, swollen lymphnodes behind my jaw, body aches, runny nose, congestion, the whole bit. So I thought I had the flu. Then I woke up one morning and peed, and when I wiped...the agony cannot be explained. I took a mirror to look and see what was going on, and I had sores. So I booked an appointment asap with the best doctor I could find. I went in and she did a swab test, pap and blood test. The swab test revealed only "bacteria" imagine...after that I had to wait 5 days for a diagnosis. Given nothing for the pain. Her only advice was "put Vaseline on it." Thank god for AZO and IbuProfen. They helped me get through. When she finally calls me back, she tells me,"You've tested positive for herpes symplex virus-2. I'm putting you on a 10 day regimine of acyclovir blah, blah, blah. What pharmacy would you like me to send it to? Goodbye." So I'm sitting there in shock with NO explanation, no information, no nothing. Wondering how the hell I ended up with this. I am so frustrated. I've researched all over about the STI and I only find 2 extremes. Sites saying,"It's no big deal! The worst part of herpes is the stigma!" And the more popular,"Your life is over now." And honestly it's not the stigma. This affects your whole life! Relationships, health, pregnancy, family, break outs, shedding, increased risk of other sexually transmitted diseases. I was diagnosed 2 months ago, and I still suffer from cold and flu-like symptoms that come and go, as well as EXTREME fatigue. All while continuing my "regimine" of what seems to be an extremely useless acyclovir, antiviral. After all this time intimacy is OUT of the question, because it's too painful. And I can't find any concrete information on how to live with it, or what I'm supposed to do now! I've don't get any help from doctors and frankly, don't want to deal with them at all after this last experience. So, I guess what I'm looking for is advice on how to deal with it now, and any legitimate information on what it's going to be like living with this condition. And peace of mind as to whether my life is over or not, which...I feel, it is.