What do you think?

[confused1980]

Hi everyone,

I am seeking opinions from people that have experienced an outbreak and to comment on my situation.  Please, share whether or not you had some similarities in your experience.

A week after exposure (nude grinding of less than a minute).   A few days later I noticed small skin colored bumps on my penis. They were very small. All little circles, except one looked a little more like a tiny worm shape (I did put hand sanitizer on my penis from freaking out, don't know if that could have caused the bumps).  Also, my penis Corona was slightly swollen. I freaked out and started self treating. I put my penis in apple cider vinegar. I put tea tree oil on any small bump that I saw. At that point I had extreme anxiety. I  lost my appetite and substantial weight. A week after the incident, I decided to put my penis in apple cider vinegar with baking soda. The next day, I was sitting at work and all of a sudden experienced a strong burning sensation in both thighs, followed by a nerve pain in my right leg, some abdominal discomfort, a quick strange burning sensation in my anus (felt like a quick electric shock), my testicles burned a bit, and some back pain. It didn’t last very long. Everything was about 20 minutes.  No real pain on my actual penis. Just some penis tingling which I always experienced after applying tea tree oil. I have to also mention that around that time, I was using a plant based detergent that I soon realized made other parts of my body itchy. Besides seeing very small bumps on my penis (and some still exist, so they may have always been there), I did not have any of the typical herpes blisters, nothing that opened and leaked fluid, no pain during urination, and I had negative igg blood results at 1 month, 2 months, and 3 months. My main concern was the strange prodrome like symptoms. Could it have been anxiety and plant-based detergent driven? A few days after the burning sensation at work a GP said my penis looked normal, and a few days after that a urologist said it looked normal. Let me know what you think. Thanks.

I haven't had any symptoms since, but it's only been a few months.  Have I joined the club or have I experienced contact dermatitis with extreme anxiety?  Or even the misuse of hand sanitizer, acv, and baking soda.

[WilsoInAus]

Let's start at the beginning!

Your partner is not guaranteed to have genital herpes at all, nor be shedding the copious amount of virus that is required to infect if they did happen to have herpes.

Nude grinding is not a really good mechanism for transferring herpes.

Having no lesions to swab is also a good sign that no infection took place.

The symptoms you describe of general tingling is not a symptom of herpes or prodrome.

The clincher is a 3 month test in the negative, this is highly conclusive.

You can be very confident that you do not carry the herpes virus genitally.

[confused1980]

Thank you.  I love your answer.  Just wondering what would cause my body to have that strange reaction.  I am starting to move past this.  

[WilsoInAus]

We can't go that far in terms of suggesting causes, especially if there are mechanical issues at play with your kidneys, prostate or pelvis etc.

I do know that stress and anxiety can cause these symptoms. Are you particularly stressed over the episode... someone other than your regular partner for example?

[confused1980]

Yes, someone other than regular partner.  An exotic dancer.  I told my partner, we are working on  it.  Has anyone else had small bumps that just appeared?  Flesh colored on the penis head (small) and then disappear about 3 days later?  No fluid, just kind of disappeared?  Anyone have those strange feelings I experienced that only lasted about 20 minutes?  Out of curiosity, how long after a first outbreak did people experience a 2nd one?  For people that felt itchy, where was that itching felt?  Near the lesions or throughout the body?  I am struggling so hard to let this go.  This mistake is destroying my life.

[WilsoInAus]

No, only you are destroying your life. You are only using HSV to channel your torment, your punishment and your relationship complexities. These things are seemingy easier to cope with by objectifying them inside a ‘mysterious disease’.

YOU did not contract HSV from the dancer.

YOU alone are accountable for your actions and thoughts and feelings.

YOU alone have all the wherewithall to act with love, contrition and positivity for the life you desire.