I feel like I just want to cry most days.

[Hopefulwv]

Hello all, I feel very discouraged from life now that I know that I have this disease. I feel like I’m very unlovable and that I will never find true love or that true love will never find me. I’m only 26 years old but I feel very tied down and guilty from this disease that I have. I feel so sad every day and I crave affection.  I feel like I can only be with someone else that has the same virus that I have in the future to have an honest relationship. Because let’s be real it would be so hard to tell someone when I have this herpes disease. I just feel very lonely,  And I feel like I can’t get ahead in my life because I’m so depressed sometimes ha ha it seems like that’s all I can think about sometimes is the disease and then I have it. Well I hope all of you guys are doing well and I hope you have a great summer :-)

[Bkittany]

I feel the same. I am worried about finding someone that will love me. Not only do I have HSV2, but I am a 22 year old single mom of a three month old baby. This past year has been a roller coaster of high's and low's and I'm just about ready to hop off this ride. Thankfully, my son keeps my depression at bay. I love him more than anything else in the world, and the fact that his father didn't want him makes it so much easier to suppress suicidal thoughts. I'm all he has, and I could never leave him. I wish you luck on this journey.

[Dee22]

Hi

 

hope u are ok. I understand. I feel

ok but have lots of moments of sadness and it just messes with your head worrying and knowing its in your  system

Thanks for sharing 

[Honey22]

I was just diagnosed yesterday. I’m 27 years old & as soon as I told my boyfriend he said we need a “break” which I know means he blames me & we are done. I feel completely alone and not at all optimistic about future relationships. So I understand how your feeling. 

[LoveIsBipolar]

    Initially, I felt the same as you, but after 6-12 months, my body adjusted and outbreaks became seldom/rare. Two out of five people are afflicted with HSV or worse, in the U.S., so don't feel like an outcast. 

 

 

[Sadhiker]

I completely feel your pain. I've thought about suicide a few times but am also really trying to turn this negative thing into a positive. What makes this disease so difficult is that you can't share your sadness with anyone else for fear that you will be judged. People seem to show empathy when you have cancer or a degenerative disease that seems like it was completely out of your control.  For some reason, people think this is completely in your control and it's your fault you got herpes.  I've pondered the justification behind the stigma and came up with a conclusion. If anyone want to cast a stone at you, they have no right to judge if they've ever had an STD scare or a pregnancy scare.  Which to me, has been nearly everyone. I can't tell you a person who had used condoms 100% of the time or abstained from sex until marriage except for my parents.

[ConfusedandHurt]

Hi!! Everyone says it’s not that bad etc etc but I feel like it’s easier for them to say b/c they don’t have it. Time helps. But you have to control your future. I’ve been diagnosed for 2 years and I’ve had my ups and downs. Recently I felt like I had a mental breakdown from all of the loneliness, sadness, anger, bitterness, etc. My mind toyed with suicide as well. But after 2 weeks I realized I can’t be sad anymore. It’s easier said than done. I’ve learned to take one day at a time. I’m not going to get the closure I want or understand why I got this. People keep telling me that one day someone will love me and won’t worry about my condition. I just wait for the day, try to keep myself busy. But if you ever want to talk, feel free to reach out. We can uplift each other.