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Anyone else actually legit ok? After doing the research, finding out how to keep myself healthy, how to keep this in dormacy, plus seeing how large of a community is on this side of the fence.... like, I'm good. And everyone else really should take the time to read, watch videos, figure out how your own body works with this shit, keep this community close also. We're all gonna be fine.  I'm more annoyed by occasional indigestion honestly.

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22Newbie

My emotions vary given the day. Today, Im meh. I have GHSV1 and thankfully it hasn't presented any more issues since my initial OB (which was nearly non existent/super mild). There was a period of like 3 weeks where I completely forgot I had it. But now that Im talking to a few people again (I was diagnosed in August), Im thinking about disclosure and its giving me ridiculous anxiety thinking about how to do it and what I'll really say.

For the most part I'm okay though too :) 

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ella2016

I have to agree. I'm actually...fine? I freaked out at my first OB last month, but then after reading all the information out there, and starting taking care of myself, I don't think about it most days. There is the occasional anxiety and I haven't worked up the courage to tell people except my bf, but I read a lot about people talking like its the end of the world (which makes me think "Should I be worrying more?"). Of course, everyone's feelings are valid, but, personally, I wish I had someone to talk to about this that isn't completely distraught. 

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Opalgirl

i just got diagnosed...sure i cried and told my partner and he's devastated he gave this to me...but now...i'm pretty mellow...they say as long as you stay healthy you shouldn't get to many outbreaks and that the first is the worst one...so I guess I'm over that hump...I don't think its really anyone's fucking busniess unless I'm having sex with them or they're my doctor. We arent any less worthy or less of a person because of this. We sre still lovable valuable human beings.

Fuck I think being able to go through this shit shows how strong we really are. We are strong beautiful creatures who have to fight this shit everyday. 

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On 10/22/2018 at 6:55 PM, Opalgirl said:

i just got diagnosed...sure i cried and told my partner and he's devastated he gave this to me...but now...i'm pretty mellow...they say as long as you stay healthy you shouldn't get to many outbreaks and that the first is the worst one...so I guess I'm over that hump...I don't think its really anyone's fucking busniess unless I'm having sex with them or they're my doctor. We arent any less worthy or less of a person because of this. We sre still lovable valuable human beings.

Fuck I think being able to go through this shit shows how strong we really are. We are strong beautiful creatures who have to fight this shit everyday. 

Thanks for saying this. It gives me a little more reassurance that we aren't less worthy or less of a person because of this. I try to tell myself this and keep reminding myself that it is no ones business and it is something that does not define us. I'm just so worried about the future and future partners. I want to be able to trust someone and put my faith in them that they will understand, but I'm scared that they'll run off. Especially if I really care about them. I have this guy friend who is one of my best friends, and he told me that a girl was making a move on him and tried to have sex with him. Before they actually had sex, she told him she has herpes and he refused her immediately and told me "how lucky he is that he didn't have sex with her, because that would've been bad." Now this just makes me feel gross..  I don't want to tell him now (even though he's my best friend) because I just feel like he'll see me differently...

 

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