Find something to live for, be thankful for what you do/don't have, there are a lot of things worse than herpes, a long bloody list of hellish things people suffer from... Billions of have died horrible deaths. Stop feeling sorry for yourself, when you feel knocked down, get up and keep fighting. You never know what tomorrow might bring or what silver lining there might be in your future. Keep fighting. There's a lot you can do for yourself, but first you have to accept that you screwed up, let go of the things you used to take for granted, let go of what you can't have anymore, decide to fight and live the best you can with the cards in your hands. You just never know what tomorrow will bring. Use yourself to some other purpose, do something you never would have done had herpes not come your way. Even if that is just getting up and fighting the herpes every day, do it. Don't give up.