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Sad4L
So I lost my info to my other account but about 3 years ago I was diagnosed with HSV2. Only 17 Had Only had sex less than a handful of times. The close friend I gave my virginity to, my boyfriend I was on and off with due to me breaking up with him, and my first No strings art attached encounter (which was still with a male friend I knew well). Nobody has ever stepped forward to take claim of my diagnosis or to apologize and be accountable. I still remember that night in the emergency room after being in pain for over a week and my mom sitting there telling me if it was serious she "wasn't going to help me" as soon as we walked out the doors that night. Not only that , she cut my phone off the next day so my doctors couldn't call me with my results. They called her so even though I know I have it and took the antivirals to clear it up I never really got that closure from anyone. The people in the ER didn't offer much insight except "It's not life threatening, it's not that serious, and to just wear a condom if I'm having sex specifically during an outbreak but that I wouldn't be having sex during an outbreak because it'd hurt." . After long long nights of losing myself to the mercy of google I stumbled across this site and though some stories completely made me obsess more, I will say it has helped me tremendously. My mother and I haven't talked about my diagnosis since, and so I don't feel comfortable crying to her. IM HAVING MY FIRST MAJOR OB SINCE THAT NIGHT and I can not stop replaying everything in my head and feeling like a complete waste of space. I'm in pain, I can't get the burning to stop. I tried a cooling aloe based gel but if anything it's irritating the skin more, my care team at my hospital is taking a while to respond to help get a prescription in and I just feel alone in all this. I know there's nothing unique about my case and that I should be more than grateful i haven't been having horrible back to back OB's but shit. Like fuck me , I just don't understand.
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