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hangirl

I was diagnosed with GHSV1 two years ago, i was in denial and still am. The doctor even said that what I had did not look like herpes. Dont know how or when i got it, and thats the worst part. I havent had an outbreak for two years, and i started feeling normal and honestly forgot i had it. I practiced safe sex but did not disclose my condition in fear of rejection. I have been taking Lysine and have been feeling great...until now. A former partner (who i never had sex with in any form), approached me saying he had gotten diagnosed HSV1, this brought back the stress, anxiety, fear, and depression I had gone through with my diagnosis. which then caused me to spiral into research and sleepless nights spent thinking how i will conquer this disease. After all the stress and research i am now feeling itchiness down there and pins and needles feelings, yet no blisters or rash. No clue if its my mind messing with me, or an actual outbreak (would be my first since my diagnosis). I guess i just need reassurance and consolation.. I feel lonely, no one knows i have this... The guy i am seeing now will not want me if i tell him... I keep convincing myself that if i take care of myself and continuously practice safe sex, i will never have to tell anyone until i meet my husband but i know that is not true... I have no where to go and dont know what to do.

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MiLoBeng

I understand how you felt about your diagnosis but you should always disclose your condition before having sex with anyone even though transmission is low while protected but there's still risk. And people actually have the right to sue you if you happen to infect them without disclosing your condition to them in the first place (so be careful) it's not worth it. 

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