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newlydiagnosedfml

I was raped and he gave me herpes. Through all the fucking bullshit I’ve been through this is really the thing that’s making me consider wether or not I’m wasting my time here on earth. I feel like I’ll never be loved or be able to love. I’ll never get married. I’ll never have kids. There’s no fucking point. I’m fucking 17 and I feel like my times already run out. I’ve been ruined. Entirely.

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T9000

Have you had any luck with pursuing legal action against him? 

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Newone2
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I get how you feel. I feel as though this has ruined my life as well. The good news is that there is a real chance at a cure coming out in the next decade. Possibly sooner if we are lucky. That’s what keeps me going. The hope that one day we can all get our lives back from this virus that has stollen our freedom and peace of mind. I’m truly sorry this happened to you. I hope they caught the piece of shit that did this to you.

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Sammy127483

Trauma stays with everyone in different ways throughout their lives and there are no guarantees, but the one thing I can promise is that you will not feel this way forever. At 17, the happiest moment you will ever have in your entire life probably hasn’t even come yet. You have so much life ahead of you and so much you can do with it. Don’t let this rob you of that. Message me if you need to talk ❤️

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Skye249

I'm so sorry about what happened to you. Please consider counseling. You have been through an ordeal and you deserve help to deal with it.

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JP9

I am 23 and have contemplated suicide after this. That’s what sucks when you’re going through depression. You have these irrational and stupid thoughts. There’s so much more to life than sex, love and relationships. I wish women were taught these things - it may have saved us a lot of heartache and even saved us from H. Please don’t let this situation define you. I know you feel like you got burned twice and I haven’t been through the same situation as you but I can only imagine how you feel. Life is hard and it sucks, especially right now. But things get better. Hang in there. I’m always here for you if you need me. I’ve been through a lot too. You can inbox me if you ever need a friend.

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