Overwhelmed

[meg2]

I am suupperr overwhelmed today, I cried in the car before the gym lol. I am not sure if its because I am still struggling with a recent official breakup or because sometimes these emotions of my diagnosis comes and goes. I honestly think the stigma behind this sucks so bad and I just feel like anyone I date in the future is gonna be like "ew."

 

Even though they say when you find your "person" they are going to love you/accept you for you and it won't matter as much. But it does matter and ruins everything

[Court]

Today I told someone I had been talking to for almost a year , we didn’t have sex he said he didn’t care because I didn’t give it to him and he stopped talking to me completely.... I was so hurt and sad I cried I questioned myself ... I was so down on myself feeling disgusted and all alone like the first day I found out but honey I’m past that point in my life once you’ve excepted yourself and your situation you won’t feel like your not good enough 

[meg2]

@Court thank you. It’s just so hard 😭😭. I know it doesn’t define me but it really kicks me emotionally sometimes. 

[Theremustbeaway]

I totally understand you . I’m sorry you had to feel this way . I really wish there was a proper dating network set up .

[meg2]

@Theremustbeaway me too. I really agree with that. My head hurts from crying all day :(. 

I know I need to keep moving forward but it’s so difficult sometimes. It’s easier when you have people to talk to who genuinely understand you. 

[LightafterDarkness]

Give yourself the space to feel this way but then work hard to get back on your feet and be the best person you can be for yourself, your family/friends, and your community! Remember there are hundreds of millions of people with this thing and tens of millions of them if not more are in a relationships (of which I am certain their partner is likely negative). Be hopeful through the bad, be thankful through the good - both will eventually end.

[Court]

It’s hard I know I’m still crying daily still trying to pull myself through but it’s not the end of the world for us we just have to stay positive and find ourselves again 

[Quest]

This is what I searched on the internet until I felt better. Tons of this and how they do it. I really felt empowered when I got it under control! Only people who l have sex with will ever know. I will do it like the tagged post  in disclosure, even though I was accepted when I disclosed.

http://www.ncsddc.org/my-herpes-from-shame-to-empowerment/

[Grey0214]

Hi Meg, 

Trust me I know exactly how you feel. My diagnosis of HSV 2 happened in June of 2017 and I still struggle with it. My partner has been with me since before I even knew I had HSV, he’s tested negative on multiple occasions and he supports me and comforts me when I’m having a rough time. Truly as time goes on it does get better. Just remember that MILLIONS of people have this too. It’s a pretty difficult subject to come to terms with at first, but I’ve found that doing research and frequently checking this forum for new information has helped me tremendously! Always here to talk!

[meg2]

Hi @Grey0214 

thank you for the advice. I know i am new to this and it will take time. I guess i just want to heal super quickly emotionally. Dealing with a break up on top of it doesn’t help either... and learning to deal with things alone is the hardest part. But this site has def made me feel less alone <3.