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So....... I was diagnosed with HSV2 over a little two months ago in a hospital. I have written about how traumatising the experience was but I want to share how I’ve been dealing with it. 

 

Truth is.... I haven’t dealt with it very well mentally and I haven’t been hanging out with anyone but my mom. I can’t be the social butterfly I was, at least for now. And I don’t know how to answer the “how are you?” texts from friends because not much is happening in my life except herpes. Physique-wise, my mom and I go to dance classes three times a week so at least I have been working on my health. 

 

I have been seeking medical treatment at public clinics and private clinics and was either denied treatment and examination or met with insensitive questions from doctors. This adds to my frustration of dealing with my condition. So guess who filed a complaint to the Department of Health? Why are HSV patients denied treatment while Shingles patients could get THE EXACT SAME medication at government clinics? I hope there will an explanation and change, so not just me but other people with HSV in Hong Kong can receive our rightful treatment. Some of us simply cannot afford private clinics. 

 

Ob-wise, i am having my third. This time, i can see a single big blister. And I learnt my prodrome now. I am trying to tweak my brain to see this as just another blister you can have on your body. I remember my ex bf used to get blisters on his sole after a long day of walking. What do you do when you get a blister on your hand? You go out and live your day, probably won’t do anything about it but hope it goes away. My blister is just the same.... but a little bit more painful, annoying, and contagious. I feel less disgusting when I do this trick. You may try it too :) 

 

I’m a little sad today because I have been feeling drowsy and I am having a low fever right now. I have done nothing today but going to the dance class. I have cut all alcohol, slept 7-9 hours every single day, exercised every week, and ate as healthy as I can. I feel like I have done nothing to deserve the fever, but then again, NO one deserves any kind of illness and health/life is not guaranteed. 

 

I just saw this chibird art that makes my day suck less - and I’m posting this for you - tomorrow could be different :) 

 

also for those people who have messaged me... you know who you are... I’m thankful for you ❤️

 

i will go to sleep... and hope the ob goes away with my fever. 🌊 

 

...Tomorrow could be different. ☀️ 

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41 minutes ago, heididehk said:

So....... I was diagnosed with HSV2 over a little two months ago in a hospital. I have written about how traumatising the experience was but I want to share how I’ve been dealing with it. 

 

Truth is.... I haven’t dealt with it very well mentally and I haven’t been hanging out with anyone but my mom. I can’t be the social butterfly I was, at least for now. And I don’t know how to answer the “how are you?” texts from friends because not much is happening in my life except herpes. Physique-wise, my mom and I go to dance classes three times a week so at least I have been working on my health. 

 

I have been seeking medical treatment at public clinics and private clinics and was either denied treatment and examination or met with insensitive questions from doctors. This adds to my frustration of dealing with my condition. So guess who filed a complaint to the Department of Health? Why are HSV patients denied treatment while Shingles patients could get THE EXACT SAME medication at government clinics? I hope there will an explanation and change, so not just me but other people with HSV in Hong Kong can receive our rightful treatment. Some of us simply cannot afford private clinics. 

 

Ob-wise, i am having my third. This time, i can see a single big blister. And I learnt my prodrome now. I am trying to tweak my brain to see this as just another blister you can have on your body. I remember my ex bf used to get blisters on his sole after a long day of walking. What do you do when you get a blister on your hand? You go out and live your day, probably won’t do anything about it but hope it goes away. My blister is just the same.... but a little bit more painful, annoying, and contagious. I feel less disgusting when I do this trick. You may try it too :) 

 

I’m a little sad today because I have been feeling drowsy and I am having a low fever right now. I have done nothing today but going to the dance class. I have cut all alcohol, slept 7-9 hours every single day, exercised every week, and ate as healthy as I can. I feel like I have done nothing to deserve the fever, but then again, NO one deserves any kind of illness and health/life is not guaranteed. 

 

I just saw this chibird art that makes my day suck less - and I’m posting this for you - tomorrow could be different :) 

 

also for those people who have messaged me... you know who you are... I’m thankful for you ❤️

 

i will go to sleep... and hope the ob goes away with my fever. 🌊 

 

...Tomorrow could be different. ☀️ 

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Don't be sad at least we are alive life can still be good and full of love don't worry everything will be OK soon 

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I feel much of the sentiment you have expressed, I my self was only diagnosed about 4 months ago.

It is difficult to feel like my self again, I don't want to get into social interaction like I used to. I'm afraid of it going anywhere. 

The world keeps on going though... just like a rain cloud only over your head, but no one else can see it. 

 

Stay strong Heidi

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