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Hey y'all, it's 22 Years later...

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...and i'm still dealing with this disease. Hi guys this is my first time on this site, but I felt it was time to talk with other people who are goin thru similar situations and to gain support. I don't feel too worried about my condition for I received HSV-1 when I was still in my mother's womb. It was only now she told me how I got it and it also helped to answer my question as to why I never got the chickenpox, when everyone and their folks got it around me.

Now at 22 I've been in and out of the dating scene, but intimacy is not something I share frequently, but the last time I did was during some time overseas in April. There is a man in my life whom I've unexpectedly fell in love with and the whole point of me doin this is for him. You see, one night I came back to his place to reunite after I was backpackin to other countries w/ friends and colleagues' earlier in the day, I felt a blister forming on my lower lip. I didn't know what it was at the time so I brushed my teeth and cleaned my entire mouth. Then I put on a cold sore patch (only available in the UK and Europe) just to be on the safe side. However, I'm very worried. I've never seen a dental dam in my life (I've only been sexually active recently so I'm in the dark still about a few things) so I relied on that bandage/patch to help prevent some transmission to him. He also used the condom off and on, but I'm scared that I may have done something stupid. Sure enough the next day I was having an outbreak, the last 2 1/2 weeks that we were together we never noticed anything nor any changes have occured. I went to the doctor over there who assured me that the chance of transmission was much less since I protected the sore and it's a HSV-1 virus. But I'm still really scared b/c I meant well to keep the sore closed and to protect him, but I'm just worried as F*%K b/c I genuinely care about him and love him to death.

Sorry this is such a long introduction, but the thought of hurting him makes me upset. I've dealt with HSV-1 all my life but it's not about me anymore nor am I worried bout myself like that for my unselfishness is what brought me here...please help!

Hope to hear from you all soon hopefully with some uplifting advice!

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hi nemesi85,

I think your doc did okay with reassuring you. Here are some more points to ponder upon:

About 80% of the world's population has HSV-1 orally. Do you know if he has it or not? You did not mention this in your post. You've known him since April, or 8 months?

Seeing as he was protected and you also took steps to cover the sore, you greatly reduced the risk of him contracting it - if he doesn't have it already.

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The worst part of this virus is how it makes us feel - not the symptoms it presents. You can't beat yourself up too badly if you did the best you could - life is about learning and making mistakes. Granted, it was a mistake that might cause him some suffering, but like VVK said, do you know he doesn't already have HSV-1? It's highly possible (even probable), and it would protect him from what you have.

If you two are a good fit, hopefully you have good communication as well. Does he know you did what you thought was best? Is he scared as well? How does he feel?

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